Codax

Quickie

2003-07-01T14:37:39Z

As you can prolly tell I don't post alot here on LJ...well I keep forgetting to mention that I set up a sort of Diary over on DrgnDen.com. So you're more likely to catch me post something there.

One thing that is funny though is that I've been bugging Al to post on the DrgnDen one so instead she posts here....it's a bit confusing... Maybe she just wants to use that one for pictures? I have no idea. Anyway...I'm trying to use it more. With any luck I'll get to post something at least in the Oekaki board today.

Also working on some websites, I need to find some pictures, and examine some curriculum...who would have thought I'd be reading textbooks to find out if they would be good teaching material. I mean...that's like being a teacher...without actually teaching anything.

Today Alison's going to take me out to the movies...I can't wait. Just a few more hours of work...lol a few more...it's like 6 more hours. Anyway...yeah.

codax @ 2003-03-18T09:03:00

2003-03-18T15:43:54Z

-*-*YoU yOu YoU*-*-
Full name: Miguel Antonio Nieves
Do you like it?: S'okay, Its kinda fun and ironic since it spells MAN, but if I was ever a movie star I think I'd have to change it to Michael Snow
Nicknames: Mig, Miggy, Puppy, Cutestuff, Mig-luv, <|>
Age: 21
DOB: March 9th
Height: 6' or so
Hair colour: I'm a natural tri tone, dark brown -> medium brown -> blonde
Eye colour: Dark Brown
Where do you live?: PHILLY!
Do you like it there?: Yeah Philly is awesome, its just big city enough to be fun and there's so much to do and see (even if I don't have time to do and see it)
Why/Why not: Oops answered that one already
Where were you born?: Washington, DC
Astrological sign: Pieces
Shoe Size: 10 1/2 ish

-*-*FaMiLy*-*-
Parents names: Antonio & Carmel
Do you have any siblings?: Yes
If so, what are their names and ages?: Ricardo 16, Ramon 8
Are your parents divorced/remarried/single?: Married, and fighting
Pets: OMG, at home I have the best dog ever, Rush, but in Philly we have FIVE cats Yume, Casious, Princess, Little girl, and other grey one
Names: lol ooops I did it again
Do you like your family?: Mostly, it just sucks that I can never tell my mom about how I really am. She's uber traditional and would never accept my lifestyle. Hell she can bearly stand it that I'm becoming more of an artist

-*-*FaVoRiTe*-*-
Number: 7, 9
Color: Purple, Black, Cyan
Car: I used to like Talon's but I've fallen in love with my Cavaliar. It's soo sleek and fuel effecient too.
Season: Spring and Fall
Holiday: Valentine's Day
Month: February...I can't spell it, it's short, and it has valentines da
Day of the week: Any day I work/study less than 8 hours
Grade so far: 30-40% Down....that is one sweet hill
Sport: Netball...Definatly a spectator sport
Drink: Vodka, Hard Ice Tea, Coke(not Pepsi), Root Beer
Candy: Mike and Ikes or anything chocolate
Food: Soul Food, Italian, Japanese
Dessert: Cookies!
TV show: Invader Zim, Family Guy, Futurama, Home Movies, Simpsons
Radio station: Y100 Modern Rock, Q102 They play pop techno sometimes
CD: Powerman 5000, Moby's Play, Cirque de Soleil
Movie: Moulan Rouge, DragonHeart,
Actor: Antonio Banderez.
Actress: Mary from something about Mary, I think....I can never remember names
Song: Almost anything by Moby, "Time of your life" GreenDay
Word: Antidisestablishmentarianism --it's the longest word I know tho some might argue with you and say that Pancreas is my favourite word
Phrase: "You like it!"
Animal: Dog
Flower: Wild
Clothing store: Salvation Army/Jomart/Ebay.
Article of clothing: The very first skirt I ever wore, a box pleated navy blue for my Sailor Mercury costume...it's now way too short as I'm a bit taller (a little rounder too v.v;;;)
Underwear: *meep* I think they have to be the ones with the hearts that Ali got for me on Valentines Day.
Ice cream flavor: Caramel Key (Vanilla with Caramel and fudge veins)
Breakfast food: Fried Eggs over Medium, Bagels, Raisin Bread
Way to have fun: Drawing, playing video games, flirting, shopping (mall rat)

-*-*ThIs Or ThAt*-*-
Me/You: Prolly you, I don't like me very much
MSN/ICQ: Ewwww, this scary dude was totally stalking me on ICQ
CD/Cassette: CDs sound alot better...specially when you fill them with MP3s
DVD/VCR: DVD
Radio/CD: MP3 CD
Slow dance/Freak dance: Slow dance than blends into Freaking
Jeans/Khakis: I hate Khakis with an otherworldy passion (can one be more corperate)
Jacket/Hoodie: Hoodies are super cute! ^____^
Leather/Pleather: Pleather. Sooooo much cheaper
Sparkles/Bronze: Sparkles!
Sexy/Hot: Hott...Sexy's okay, but it kinda sux if you know you're not gunna get any
Car/Truck: Car
Civic/Acura: Neither of those :P
Corvette/Camero: Corvette...meow
Strong/Weak: Strong, I shouldn't put myself through the things I do...except I know I can take it....so I do.
Upset/Pissed: People say that when I'm upset I look really pissed and god save us all when I'm pissed. Damn Rage issues
Tall/Short: I wonder what it is like be short, to be held by someone.
Lunch/Dinner: Dinner, I always miss lunch...sometimes breakfast too
Abercrombie/Hollister: ???
Gap/Old Navy: Actually I like Old Navy, they've started carrying really super cute clothes that they never advertise so there's always plent in stock for me ^.^
Nsync/BSB: I dislike boybands, but the occasional upbeat dance/house groove the put out I enjoy
Britney/Christina: Christina's prettier, but way too slutty for her own good
Love/Lust: Both at the same time is very much fun
Gone In 60 Seconds/The Fast and the Furious: Fast and the Furious! Vin Diesel has the most awesome voice ever. I want to freaking be him!
Inside/Outside: Outside, if I can ran a CAT5 out my window.
Lipstick/Lipgloss: Lipstick
Silver/Gold: Silver
Piercings/Tattoos: Neither, my mom would explode and die. I got a temporary pair of dragon wings on my back and she had a freaking fit
Football/Basketball: Basketball is easier to follow
Thunder/Lightning: Lightning, I am Raichu!

-*-*FrIeNdS*-*-
Who are your best friends?: Alison, Ed, Raph, Aaron, Adam, Lydia, Tony, Brett, Ben, BryBry, Josh, Heather, Eric and a lil shout out to all my friends that I havn't hung out with in like, forever.
Do you get along with people easily?: yeah, I'm really easy to get along with
Why/Why not: I don't know why people like me, I figure they can see something I don't
Who have you known the longest?: Alison, well not really, but it feels like it
Who do you dislike the most?: Pete, not bitterness...really....riiiiight...
Was your crush/bf/gf a close friend before you liked them?: Actually we were sort of lab partners first. I'm sure that I tried to blow her up once or twice...
Craziest: Eric
Loudest: Josh
Funniest: Raph
Quietest: Heather
Sweetest: Alison
Most caring: Alison
Most understanding: BryBry
Kinkiest: Scott or Alec...weird bastards ^.^
Sleeziest: Sorry Alec, but that whole Otakon head shaving thing....
Best dressed: Raph...lol he finaly gave me back most of my shirts...I think...
Biggest flirt: BryBry
Most likely to have a 2 year relationship: Raph
Cutest couple: Ed and his money, Eric and his Xbox controller ^.^
Most loyal: Ed, nothing but love for ya man
Most athletic: Bryan wins again
If you were stuck with only 2 friends, who would you pick and why?: Alison and Bryan...FIGHT FOR MY LOVE! hahahaha j/k

If you were the opposite sex, which member of the same sex (as you are now) would you date and why?: If I was a chick I would definatly go after Alison...she's not gay at all....but I'd certainly try to fix that...if I had to go after a guy I'll just say that Ed you really know how to treat people right, Raph you've got a great sense of humor, Bryan...time to make you straight ^.^ j/k, Alec it'd be fun but you need a Dom to make you happy and Lindsey'd kick my ass...hahahahaha
Most likely to be on America's Most Wanted: James
Most likely to be a stripper: Tony, he's already a bouncer
One you'd travel across the world for: Alison
If you could take 5 friends to paradise with you to live, who would you take?: Alison, Bryan, Raph, Ed, Aaron
Who would do anything for a thousand dollars?: Raph or Alison, they might do it for free if you dare'd em to
Who has the nicest parents?: Alison, I've been living in their house for 4 monthes
Who is like your adopted sister/brother?: Ed, I'm always there for ya man!

-*-*LoVe n ReLaTiOnShIpS*-*-
Do you have a bf/gf?: Yeah!
If so, who?: Alison
If not, do you have a crush?: Yup!
If so, who?: Cute Con girls.
How long have you liked your bf/gf/crush?: 3 years
What about them do you like so much?: She's so amazing, she likes me, wants me and can draw really really well.
Weakest quality?: She doesn't have the great a self esteem. I wish I could do more to make her feel as special as she is
How long have you known them?: 3.5 years :D
What physical feature attracted you to them first?: Pretty Eyes
Personality feature: When I'm with my Ali the world is all right
If you could kiss one famous >MUSICIAN< who would it be and why?: Moby's bald head lol!
If you could kiss one famous >ACTOR< who would it be and why?: #.#;;;;;; Uhm...no idea on that one
If you're single, why do you think you are?: I prolly did something really stupid or over reacted to a really dumb situation.
What was your longest relationship?: 3 years
Shortest: 1 week. We were really hot for each other, but my small town high school student body couldn't stand to see me happy
Who was your first love (if you've had one)?: Amber
Do you miss them (if your not still together)?: Nope, I was like 6 or something
First kiss: Technically it was in middle school with this girl I liked name Carmen Dukes...but that was only cheek. My real first kiss was when I was like 15 while I was in Austrialia. Zoe and I kept in contact for like 4 years after that.
Most recent kiss: This morning
Who is one person you've liked but >NEVER< said a thing?: *blushes* Bryan, Diane, Katie

-*-*PaSt*-*-
If you could take back one thing you did, what would it be and why?: Being so forgiving with Pete
Do you have any regrets?: I try to live life without regrets, but in my realizations about how stupid I was about certain things, I find myself with a ball of regret stuck in my throat...it's really hard to swallow.
Last thing you said: "it's really hard to swallow" (god that sounds dirty)
Last song you heard: Blew -- Nirvana
Last person you talked to: Leslie (co worker)
If you could get back together with an ex, who would it be and why?: I never really had an Ex...I refused to have a girlfriend through most of high school and I was happy to causually date a few girls in college. Though I would have liked to have had a little more time with Cara in high school. She was kinda a slut, but she liked me.

-*-*PrEsEnT*-*-
What are you doing right now?: Dodging work
What cd is in your cd player?: Invader Zim Episodes 1 - 6
Are you cold?: Nope, it's finaly spring
How are you sitting?: In my office computer chair...I generally sit with strangely vertical posture
Is there music on?: yes
If so, what song is it?: DJ Skribble (Hey Hector)
What time is it?: 10:20 AM EST
Where are your parents?: In Ohio doing their own thing

-*-*FuTuRe*-*-
How old will you be when you graduate high school?: erm...been there done that...i was 16 when I got out.
Are you going to get married?: One day...if someone will have me
Although you cant tell who you'll marry, is there anyone you'd wish it would be?: Yes
If so, who?: I'm not telling, I don't wanna Jinx it
Are you going to have children?: yeah a cute girl named Darlatia and maybe another kid too...depends on how broken down and crotchity I am
If yes, how many?: 2 or 3 at most
What will you name them?: Darlatia Ann Nieves (that way she can go by Danny when she eventually hates me and her name), just for the hell of it I might name the boy Cody...I really don't have any other naming plans...let my wife handle it
Which college: I go to Drexel U. Maybe oneday I'll go to Digipen
What kind of car will you want to drive: For my birthday I got a cherry red 2002 Chevrolette Cavalier. To replace my Navy blue and rust 87 chevrolette Cavalier
What kind of job will you have: Video Game Designer, Colorist, Web Designer
Whats your expectations for when your 25?: I hope to have a small cult following that will like the things I and my company creates. Not only because I made it, but because it's really good

-*-*HaVe YoU eVeR*-*-
Drank: Yep
Smoked: Yep
Skinny Dipped: Yes
Prank called the police: nope
Been high: nope
Done drugs: Never
If so, what?: People always think I'm on something...I don't know why
Stole: heehee....uhm...of course officer...I always register my shareware...
Met someone off the net: Working on it, but I think the perfection of anonimity on the internet is more comfortable for him
Been in a fist fight: Lots
Punched your sibling/parent: Nothing serious, mostly just playing around
Wished you'd die: Lots of times, I'm not sure what keeps me going, but I just know I can never give up. Plus there are lots of people that have alot invested in me....I'm not allowed to go yet ^.^
Tried to commit suicide: Suicide is for people too afraid to go out in a murderous rampage.
Broken a bone: nope
Driven illegally: No
Thrown things at your parents: Only emtional baggage
Runaway: Yes, I'm in Philly aren't eye
Filled out a survey this long: Jeezus I started this an hour and a half ago!

-*-*HoW wOuLd YOU sPeLl ThEsE*-*-
Sean/Shawn: Shawn
Desiree/Desirae/other: What they hell does this word mean?
Megan/Meghan: Megan
Nicole/Nichole/other: Nicole
Mark/Marc: Mark
Eric/Erik: Eric
Ashley/Ashlee/Ashleigh/other: Ashley
Morgan/Morghan: Morgan
Jackie/Jaqui/other: Jacky
Caitlin/Kaitlyn/other: Kaitlin
Shelly/Shelley/other: Shelly
Carey/Carrie/other: Carrie
Vick/Vic: Vic
Darren/Daren: Darren
Derek/Derrick: Derek
Bryan/Brian: lol...Bryan all the way
Nikki/Nicky/Nicci/other: Nikki
Christina/Kristina: Christina
Zak/Zack/Zach: Zach
Gina/Geena: Gina

-*-*OtHeRs*-*-
Do you right in cursive or print?: I do crusive when I feel letters should be joined and its faster than not joined. It's a scary mix
Are you a lefty, righty, or ambidextrious: Ambidextrious, due to that I was born left handed, but my parents made me right handed
Do you believe in God?: Yep
What do you think of rainbows?: Oooo pretty
Do you have any piercings/tattoos?: You asked this already
If so, where?: I only use magnetic earrings
If not, do you want any, where?: I want dragon wings tattoo'd on my back
What do you think of Eminem?: I like the popular stuff because it has alot of raw emotion and hope. His other stuff is generally pretty crappy
Is Tupac Shakur really dead?: Usually a hail of gunfire will do that to a person
What do you think of Britney and Justin?: Writeing your own music doesn't mean having a million and a half co-writers
If you could live anywhere else, where would you live?: Sydney
Do you drive?: Yup
Do you have braces or glasses?: glasses
Like milk and cookies?: like oxyen
Ever worn black nail polish?: Yup
If your a guy, have you ever painted your nails?: Sure
Girls, what color nail polish do you have on?: *blushes* Metallic Blue right now v.v;;;
If you could have a 6th sense, what would it be?: Astral Projection
If you had a magical power, what would it be and why would you want it?: the ability to turn into anything at will. That way I could always be happy with how I look. People wouldn't laugh at uncomfortably when I wear a skirt, or totally ignore me when I wear pants. Plus, the abilty to turn into a dragon would be freaking sweet. And the ablity to be a hawk and fly through the air is very appealing
If you could be invisible for a day what would you do?: Be Nekkid all day long and be pervy
Do you do things even when your parents say no?: Yeah
Did you talk to your crush/bf/gf today?: Yes
If so, for how long?: It wasn't that kind of talk
If not, why not?: We both just woke up and went to work
Do you think this is stupidly long?: Not stupidly long... RICOCKULOUSLY LONG.
Did you like it?: S'allright
Why/Why not: It's a good time killer, plus gives me a nice thing to start off posting in my LJ again.
Do you like me for this?: I enjoyed reading it as I filled out my own stuff

-*-*FiNiSh*-*-
What time is it?: 10:42 AM
What is the date?: March 18th 2003
Why did you just do this?: I want to start writting in my LJ again without having to feel like I need to back log what has happend to me in the past 2 monthes. It wasn't bad, I just don't have the time to go into it. Plus this is nice and long...just like one of my Journal entries usually is

Backlog of DOOM!!!!

2003-01-15T17:11:59Z

The escape seems promising and not too far off. I've got a few more phone calls to make today, but I dunno if they are going to be able to match up to this really nice place we found up on Red Lion. Get this $530 a month, includes all utilities except Electric. The layout is really really nice looking too. Check it:

Not only that, but they will let us keep our 5 cats. This place is a little bit out of the way, but not really that much. No more than any other place we've had. Oh and get this, it's got sound proofing. Finaly I can have the loud weekends I've been dreaming of! I can turn my bass past 2 and my volume past 3 *happy dance* Those poor cats are going to be scared out of their minds...lol...or I'll turn them into little raving cats. That'd be cool too.

I'll finaly have my big screen TV back too! My own kitchen, I can remember how to cook again and stop spending all my cash at fast food places! I hope the refrigerator will have shelves. Hmmm it makes me smile like this:
^__________________________,^

How will poor Miggi and Ali pay for this scrumptious little place? Well, my boss finaly caved and let me have as many hours as I wanna work a day. So that means the Mig is FULL TIME baby! yeah! Well sorta. But it really means instead of pulling in only 30 hours of pay every two weeks I'll be pulling in close to 65ish, plus or minus a few hours. Also I'm trying to get Al a job here which would (even at part time) double her pay.

Also Dragon's Den is starting to really go places and the website can sustain .5 persons Yay. Now that Ali is spending more time doing commissions I think ppl that were afraid of our waiting list will come out and buy stuff. Not to mention the things we've got going on in the background.

Speaking about Dragon's Den Stuff, we just got back from Ohayocon this past weekend. As usual we had a great time, but even more so since it was my little brother's birthday. We took him with us and he loved it. Basicly that was our present to him. We couldn't cover his food or admission or anything like that, but we did pay for transportation and the hotel room. And those are the two largest expenses when going to a convention. Let me tell you, Easton is expensive...and scary. It's scary and expensive. They sawed of my left leg to pay for the first night and then 3 of my fingers to pay for the other. Yeesh.

It was a nice place though, a Hilton. I was initially very pissed off at them, because I was promised at Broadband data port in my room and a sofa. Neither of these things were included! They didn't bother telling me that when I made the reservations monthes ago. Bastards...if I had known I wasn't going to be able to make real time updates to the website, I would have stayed across the street at the Residencer Inn.

Oh and that's another thing.....the streets are really just links to a strip mall. This strip mall is ritzy though. Everything looks like a movie set off Universal Studios. It's all 20s and big with the murals and the paintings and plants and stuff. Just to give you some idea about this area...the McDonalds is the perfect example.

The McDonalds
This place is HUGE. Above the front entrance they have this 20 foot tall bust of Ronald, double doors and you walk in and imediately to your left is a Cappucinno and Ice Cream Bar. Beyond that, on seemingly every support pillar stood 4 Two player Game cubes. As your eyes scan right you would see an open playground in the middle of the dinning area. This playground is filled with custom structures too, like a play house, burgers that are actually squishy and oversied packets of Ketchup to jump on (not filled with real ketchup)...I think I even saw some strangly large seasme seeds.

Now I needed to recover after seeing all this so I leaned on this wall, but it wasn't a wall! It was the door to the Kareoke room!! How does a McDs have a Kareoke room and more Game systems the the convention I had just come from? Surely the universe was to colapse in on itself, but I should have prepared myself for this tho....I mean...they had no drive through...what kind of McDonalds doesn't have a drive thru?! Apparently this one...weird.

Anyway back to the hotel and Ohayocon. Just a brief run down, I wasn't feeling too well (Philly Phlu) so it was up and down for me.

Thursday/Friday
Might as well start at the beginning. We made it to my parent's house on Thursday night and not 10 minutes of my mother being home she bribes me with free food to come to her office and fix her computers for her. v.v;;; As I 've said before, I don't mind fixing her computers, but I like to think that I can come home for like 5 seconds without being "on". I know it was important that they work, but it's not something you really wanna do after sitting in a car for 6 hours. Its always very convenient the way her computers only break when I come home for the weekend. I know she wants to just steal some time with me, but there are other ways than fixing computers. I've already told her several several times I really don't enjoy fixing computers...that's why I'm not an IT major. I like making them, and programming them. I just have the skills to do the other stuff too.

The free food was really good though. Even though I had a really noxious stomach ache I had 5way chilli, which is Chilli with meat, 3 cheeses on Pasta and a MilkShake. It was soooooo good, but gave me really strange dreams. I liked it. My stomach...didn't like it so much.

Friday morning it was snowing....alot. 3ft visiblity, ice on the road kind of snow. It was really exciting to drive in at 7am. It was hard, but I enjoyed it, and it was worth it too. Instead of going 30 mph like most the other drivers, I reasoned that since the storm was traveling eastward, and I westward...the faster I went west...the faster I would be out of the storm. I trust myself and I trust my car so we were hauling tail at an average clip of 65mph. In under 30 minutes the snow fall was gone and all that was left was the icey roads. Now that the sun was up I could see and that was nice too.

The only trouble came about 10 minutes away from the hotel...my stomach finaly stoped liking the chili from the night before. I spent the next hour bearly able to walk right. But there was alot to get done. The hotel had to be checked into, I had to make sure we got an art table with exectrical outlets. Finaly I was able to get up to the room and more importantly the bathroom. lol. I may say many thing about the Hilton we stayed at, but the one good thing I can tell you is that the bathrooms....are NICE.

We only got a handful of commissions on Friday, mosty due to the fact that this place was in the middle of nowhere so local kids couldn't just stop in. I also think that people were alot tighter with their money this year, mostly because of the expensive surroundings. We did a couple of really really intresting pictures, I do think we would have gotten more if I had done any advertising or especially if I wasn't feeling like crap. I didn't actually "sell" to ppl, I let the Ali's skill sell itself. Also I took /way/ too long colouring. Still we got to watch alot of Anime that I had lying around.

The one thing we didn't really like Friday was this one Furvert who comes up to me and tells me the theme of his book was "Mad Scientists and Catgirls" just gives us $$ for a basic ink. Ali really liked the idea, but was a little perturbed by the amount of nude half male half female cat girls. So she drew this really nice picture of a catgirl nibbling a cute mad scientist's ear. It was a really good picture (wish I'd gotten a scan of it now), and because she liked the cute idea she added an extra chara for free. And that jackbutt didn't even like it! It was exactly what he asked me for too. I guess we were the first ppl he came to with the book and he learned to tell ppl exactly what he wanted. Our good friend Matt Burke drew in the book too and he told us how much he liked the picture, but wondered why the mad scientist wasn't turning into a chic. Hey we only draw what they tell us to. Ah well, it was bound to happen sooner or later.

lol Actually it'd happened before...back in Katsucon. We met this guy that had a blood mage catgirl and they way he described her was that as this really scary/psychotic science experiement. And he wanted pic of this blood mage catgirl. When Ali actually drew the pic this 'hardcore' dude turned like 3 shades of green and then went pale. It was a good picture, I'm not into that kinda thing, but it was really freaking disturbing. The catgirl had this scary psycotic face on as she was making a blood dagger. And bits of her fur were actually matted with blood! Ali did all this in PENCIL! Thats the cool thing about Ali's Pencil work, she not only draws in lots of detail, she knows what to leave out so that your mind fills in the blanks. I guess that's not really similar at all other than the fact that both pictures had catgirls. It's just that they disturbed the person ordering them on different levels. The blood mage was too bloody and the mad scientist and catgirl was too much love. lol...ah the adventures in drawing.

That night we were really hungry (since we'd been up since 6am) so we grabbed an early dinner at Cheesecake factory (very good) and drew a little and mostly just chilled out. I think the Smash Bros tourney was that night and I made it to the Semi Finals as Yoshi, but then played like total n00b on DK's multi level...level. I was too embarassed to go on. I contemplated never playing Smash again. Then I rationalized that if I could get 6 wins in row during normal play time, I could play again.
I acheived it on my first try on Saturday. Well technicly it was only 5 wins, but I gave the 6th one away. The competition was way too choady for my tastes.

Saturday
Rick got up really early on Saturday to watch Rockman EXE, but I slept and slept and slept. I was so tired from the previous days exertions. On the plus side, my stomach felt 100% better and I was back on my game. Ali and I pulled in just enough sales to cover our food, room, and badges.

Though I must mention a little melodrama at breakfast. First off I hate it when people try and hint that I shouldn't be someplace, just because of the way I dress and the way I act. By people I mean snobs. First off I was just trying to have a quiet breakfast with Alison and Rick and just as we start to get comfortable this waiter put the check right in the middle of the table. In the middle of all of us eating. We all looked at each other like WTF!? So I called him back over and looked him in the eye and I told him did it /look/ like we were done eating? Before he had a chance to answer I was like "No, so why whould you bring me a check?" It was actually kinda funny, cuz he stammered a bit while grasping for the excuse that most the buisness people he serves like having the check like to have the check ASAP so they can leave, but I cut him off and told him to look at the raw amount of food on the table (it covered it) and that I'm trying to have a nice relaxing breakfast and he needs to take this check and hold on to until I ask for it. I handed it to him and continued eating. It was really cool. Really messed that dude up too. Thought I wasn't going to say anything....I hate that...ppl trying that subtle shit tryting to get me to leave. Actually I didn't really care that as much as I'm making it out to be, I just didn't like there to be the check in the middle of the table while I ate. I think its rude. Rude ppl annoy me.

The really intresting part for me though was when a later when Ali was telling me about it. Apperently, even if I'm just midly annoyed I get this really scary face, like I'm about to go ape shit or something. Must

While Saturday as a day was good, I the part I remember most was the evening. Mostly cuz that was when I hung out alot with my little brother Ricky. I dunno, we didn't really talk that much, it was just really cool to just be around each other. And after we got Alison some scary Starbucks Coffee, we wen't out to the dance.

Now don't get me wrong, I had lots of fun at the dance, but it was sorta weak. Either the sound system sucked or the just weren't allowed to put the volume or Bass past 5. I've listen to louder techno Alison's house than at that dance. Oh and they didn't even play any TwoMixx! How do you have an Anime Dance without TwoMixx?! I dunno. On the plus side, I taught Rick how to rave and I'll be damned if he isn't a freaking natural. We both got some really nice things said about us and one dude even gave me his glow neclace since I didn't have one.

We then went to the game room for a bit and played some guilty gear and smash bros. Then he went off to watch more anime and I watched some Pita Ten. Then fell asleep

Sunday

Sunday was fairly unremarkable, mostly consisted of saying goodbye to a bunch of people and giving a gift to Ohayocon. I hope they like it. Sunday was the scary McDonalds and the AMC 30 movie plex thing. When we got home around 6ish Alison and I slept for 4 hours, had some pizza. Then I showed my dad the pictures Alison and I did. He showed me the photos he took while he was in Florida and then Alison and I started our 6 hour drive home.

Overall a very fun convention and now that its over we've got to gear up for the next con in just 30 days. Katsucon.

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School has been going on for the past week now, just want to remark the I love my Gaming class. Finaly I'm learning something I really want to learn at Drexel. I dropped OOP so that I could focus more time on it, especially since I work full time now. Things should be evening out more now. At least for the next 3 weeks or so. I just need to figure out when I'm going study. This will be my first normal week at school, so I've got to come up with something.

Oh that's right, I almost forgot to pich my bitch about a certain phone call I got from my mom yesterday! I am so mad at her right now! Get this, as I said before I've been fighting off the Philly Phlu and we all knew this, but she calls me up anyway and the first thing she says to me is "You got your brother (Ramon not Ricky) sick!" and I'm like "WTF"
"Yeah you got him sick"
"...uhm...what?"
"All Saturday he was vomiting and had diaherria so bad I had to take him to the emergency room!"

Now at this point, I'm just stunned into silence. I mean, she'd talked to me twice this weekend and never mentioned it, I even saw her when I was home and she didn't say jack. And now she calls me up out of the blue and drops this on me like it's my fault. I didn't even know I had anything, to me it was just another mild stomach virus. How the hell was I supposed to know I was carrying a particularly violent strain of Flu. There's nothing I can do about Ramon not having the same immunities as I do he's 12 years younger than me for crying out loud. This was largest of the 4 annoyances she brought to me.

The 3rd was that she insisted on grilling me about how specificly I was sick. Normally I wouldn't care, but I had told her that I had company over and I, despite all my confidence, don't like yelling about my disgusting bodily functions with my friends in the other room. So I was being all smooth with it and was just saying I had really bad indigestion, not particularly from the food I had eaten....REALLY bad idigestion, and all that goes with it. For as smart as my mom is (being a Doctor and all) sometimes she just dones't get the hint and I had to enunciate exactly how horrible I had felt when I came by, and maybe next time, if I have the slightest cough I should just not come by.

Then, even after me telling her that she had interupted me and my guests she insisted on me giving her over the phone tech support as to why she can't get on the internet, even though I had shown her the proper way just 2 days earlier...like 3 times! *Huff Huff* The smallest thing was that she has this knack for calling at really annoying times. Like the climax of a movie, or while I'm trying to keep my 2 passengers in the car safe from the raw amount of stupid people on the road.

Maybe I'll talk her next week. I'll just talk to my dad, I need to ask him for a loan anyway. This apartment...while nice...is very expensive the first month. And I still have some books for class to buy.

*meep* It's late...I've got some story boards to do...ack

Thursday's Trash is Friday's Treasure

2003-01-05T15:48:33Z

We both talked and things are better now. Thanks to everyone for your support, very sweet of you. Don't mind me, this'll prolly be short because I got one of those tiny cuts on my thumb and now it really hurts to use my thumb. So I won't be typing as much.

First I'd like to mention, tho, I was wrong...she hasn't been trying to get rid of me for monthes, I just read too much into things. I think she just feels that she's bringing me down. She was just trying to set me free I guess. Tho, she's the only one I wanna be with. I havn't met anyone that makes me feels like she makes me feel.

I remember being physicly cold, all day when she wasn't around. Nothing could warm me up. Yet the moment she held me, the chills went away, and I was surrounded by warmth. If that doesn't mean something I dunno what does. I think...yeah...I really do love that girl.

We're going to escape together. We need to get out of her parents house and in to our own place. A place we can fill with laughter and happiness and love. Not one of a pregnant (soon to be due) sister, her smoker bf, clutter (due to lack of space), cramped, kitty puke, parents that won't damn pony up to get her new glasses. She's princess in tower and lately instead of save her, I've been finishing the buffet. Too long have I sat idly by. This is a new year! If one ever needed an exuse to change this is it. We're gunna escape...we have to.

I feel like Thursday trash, please don't burn me

2003-01-02T21:10:05Z

Two days into this new year and it already blows ass. This does not bode well. Another year goes by in which I am once again proven right that my family will never be able to understand who I am. Or more specificly my tastes. Nothing I'm not used to, but it would have been nice. Its times like this when I really envy my friend BryBry. His mom knows and accepts him and can even they can even joke with each other. Mine just flips out over a top that's a bit tight, or having a SINGLE thumbnail painted a really cool shade of blue.

Tho it will be intresting, she's supposedly going to Ohayocon with us. One of the things Dragon's Den is known for (ya know other than the whole art thing) as vain as it sounds is Mig in a skirt or rather "that crazy skirty art boi". Yes I did actually get called that once. I told myself I wouldn't be any different around my mother, but as of late I find my confidence dwindling.

This dwindling of confidence is really starting to reck havok on me. I'm scared to be meek again, but I can bearly trust my own decisions. I've made so many bad choices, but they've been mixed with good ones so I can't tell what has caused me to be the way I am. A bunch of good choices, and bunch of bad choices, mostly bad? Mostly Good? I guess what it really boils down to is that I'm still not over Pete.

Now before you guys take that the wrong way let me clarify. We met back 1999 when we were both Freshman. He was a bit of a rules whore (as long as it suited his needs) and I was an inpulsive party boy. We were both hardcore coders. In our own minds anyway.
Ya know the whole "in the land of the blind, One Eye is the king" something like that. We almost instantly became best friends. We were in all the same classes, he would sleep I would draw, and we would both heckle. It was the best time. Then we thought hey wouldn't it be cool if we were roommates? Then we wouldn't have to walk to each of our respective dorm rooms. So for about a year and a half we lived in the same suite a(with like 4 other guys) and once again much merriment was had. But then in an effort to get us another year in the dorms (and an attempt to get the guy in charge of housing fired) we were denied and had to find a place to live super quick.

That meant we had to find something available within 2 weeks. So we found a 2 bedder for 700, thats a little (alot) expensive for the area we got it in, but they were the only place that were available so soon. Pete put down the initial 1.5k needed to get the place and after some misadventures we moved in. I was going to start my job with the school district in early October, but that was a month and a half away...and 2 monthes from the first pay check. While Pete worked on the Eutrapenureal thing I worked as much as I could at Rite Aid. If you talked to me while I was doing it, I would have told you it was hell. But it's strange how the brain seems to forget how crappy I felt, and I how much I wished I could enjoy the fruits of my labors. Because when I first think about it, Its like...yeah it was hard, but it was so cool how I was pulling 18 hour days 5 days a week and 8hrs on the weekends, but I still made time to be with my girlfriend and sneak in some fun now and again. I would tell you that even though I was under massive ammounts of Stress, with Pete still not getting paid , not paying me, the bills rising up, impending doom school would be if I didn't stay working, I only folded under the pressure once or twice and I never got mad. I was alwasy calm, cool, collect. Admitably quite tired, but they don't pay me to be a sad face. That's why I was all the time at the regiters talking to people. Near the end of my 4 monthes at Rite Aid I was starting to lose my grip on what I consider sanity. My saying of the time was "When you've got no tears left...all you can do is smile" and I did. alot.

At this point it was December, and because I was going out of town for two weeks to see my parents I quit Rite Aid. And then I did what I sould have done monthes previous and let Pete have that job. Skip ahead two weeks and it's New Years Eve, Alison and I are as usual throwing our HUGE party and of course we go to Rite Aid to get the stuff, cuz there is a nice 10% discount for employees and we let Pete check us out cuz I was going to pick him up after work. Here is the part that killed me, he wouldn't do the discount, even though I got him that job, and he was going to be eating MY pizza and drinking MY soda that I bought with MY money (that's not totally fair, Ali and I split the cost). I was sooooo pissed. You have no idea how mad I was at him. I wasn't going to pick him up, let his lame ass spend New Years Home and alone. I know it wasn't the much $$ only about 9 bucks, but still....it's the principal of the thing. I mean..How rude was that!!!

Moving on, the next 3 monthes (up till March) were actually wonderful and nice. Ali, Pete and I were all working. That meant that there were times when Ali and I could actually be alone, instead of Pete always there. It was lots of fun. Until Jobless Pete quit. Cussed out one of the managers because she told him to do something. WTF! When a manager tells you to "jump" you say "how high" and things from there...kept getting worse...and worse.

I still had my job and Ali still had hers and we paid for everything. There were many days when I would not have any food or soda, because Pete had eaten it...even though he had not actually bought it. One day, he ate an entire box of my Breakfast bars. Then he laughed in my face about it. Come to think of it that happened alot.....damn...

Pete just started sitting around, doing absolutly nothing but taking up the food, and more importantly, the AC (it was a really hot summer). And since the AC ran 24/7 the electric bill with through the roof. By the time the lease was up I (yes me, Pete registered the Electricity in my name) owed them over $800 and I still owe $100 or so to the gas company(also in my name).

Getting more to the point though, after the lease was up I never wanted to see him again. I didn't say anything but good bye. Its really strange...like a bad TV sitcom because it's a rare day when I don't think about him. What he did to me and Alison. I'm still really really pissed of at him, I don't think I could ever forgive him for betraying me like that...but more over everytime I need to make a decision I think about him and doubt myself. I though he was my best friend, when in fact he was very hurtful to me and my finances. Each choice is haunted by doubt and my confidence is waining.

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I'm so tired right now. I didn't sleep last night, a minor stomach ache mushroomed into a ball of agony that still sits in the pit of my stomach. And as if that weight wasn't enough, I am stung through my heart, it feels heavy and weak...broken as it were. Not because of Pete though....not this time. I think Ali's getting what she's been wanting for the last 6 monthes or so. We're best friends....yeah, best friends. I'm so confused, and tired, so very tired. I'm at work now. I haven't slept since 7am yesterday. My stomach ache has been keeping me up. It feels like when I was little and almost got an Ulcer...I might have to chug some Mylanta. What I really want, is to sleep...sleep forever and dream beautiful dreams. It sorta felt like that when I was around her, I guess in not sleeping last night I woke up. And it hurts it hurts more than I could have ever prepared myself for.

Happy New Year.......

I did this picture Early New Years Day

Addendum:
BryBry - Thank you for listening to me, you helped me scratch at the walls of my heart and release some of the poison. Sorry for unloading on you.

The days when a nun cuts you off....

2002-11-21T02:46:25Z

This weekend was...pretty bad. I'm just glad Alison was there...she always makes things better. I got home after HP on Friday to find my ankle was HUGE! At least 3 to 4 times normal size! SCARY! So I rewrapped it and went to sleep. On Saturday I woke up way later than I had wanted to and thus was still exhausted. My ankle's swelling had gone down, but it still hurt. I tried to do some 3d modeling on Misha like I'd promised, but after 3 hours of trying to keep my foot elevated and awkwardness I got frustrated and gave up. No only that I couldn't get any of the UVW mapping to work in 3dsmax. I even selected the vertices and laid them out an everything. I just cannot get a descent skin on Misha. I would much like it if anyone with 3dmodeling/skinning skills could clue me in.

So I decide to play some video games. I'm continue feeling a bit drowsy as I fail my way through Master mode of Guitarooman. It's gotten really really hard! I like it! But it wasn't what I needed to cheer me up. Cuz I had big plans for the weekend. Especially after the week I'd told you about before. I was gunna spend most of Saturday either jamming to some new tunes I got infront of my computer, or jamming to new tunes in DDR. Instead I'm stuck on my butt, trying not to move too much. *sigh*

Ali had gone out with her mom and I guess they had a good time, except for when Ali's purse got taken. Luckily she got it back only shy a few dollars. So I knew something I could do good on and not mess up too bad was Kingdom Hearts, plus I hadn't played it since Ali beat it and I think a nice amount of time has passed. I've mostly forgot all the stuff she'd done. About when I was ripping Jafar a new one she came home and wanted to get me some food, and I was happy. Though I still felt like it was more a poor stupid Miguel you've gone in hurt yourself again move...all I really wanted was someone to pay attention to me...ya know...rub my head and tell me sweet things. And that I'm not a retard for always doing this to myself. Someone to squeeze me and kiss me softly. Poke a lil fun at me and make me laugh.

I can be such a chic sometimes...I expect people to know what I'm thinking by how I'm dressed or what I say indirectly. Its too bad it was so cold in this place Saturday too, cuz I was wearing my tiniest skirt and favourite socks and some of my goth accessories too. Heh, all dressed up and no where to go. I was also feeling really really selfish on Saturday, I didn't want Alison to go out and I was a little mad that the one weekend she wanted to and could go somewhere I couldn't. I hadn't seen her all week and now the day I was hoping to be with her she ran off with her mom....but...(the ever important but) it was really good that she did. Alison never gets her mom to go out with her anywhere. I think this was the first time in MONTHES that they spent an afternoon with each other. 'bout Fing time. heh Sheesh how can I expect anyone to read me, when I can't even read myself.

Sunday wasn't much better, Alison had work and I was aching to play DDR or do SOMETHING ANYTHING than sit in this boring house where everyone ignores me....no that's not fair...the only person with nothing to do. Sitting at the computer is really hard to do and keep my ankle elevated. I started to play Kingdom Hearts more, but then I realized that Ed and Raph were coming over and this place was HORRIBLE looking.

I spent the first 2 hours folding clean clothes and putting dirty clothes in the basket to be washed. Then my stomach said time for breakfast and I took an hour and had lots of cereal and watched about 5 episodes of "Please! Teacher" All the while I picked up garbage off the floor and cleaned. After the lil anime thon (I havn't actually watched any anime in a long time I mostly just draw/color it now) I continuted cleaning for another 2 hours and then my Mom called. It was nice talking to her for a while as I cleaned. About this time my ankle was really starting to hurt so I grabbed some advil and decided to take a break and play some Hitman 2. Fun game, I did a level then went back to cleaning. Did another level...cleaned and so on till I couldn't stand much anymore. At this point the rooms were significantly cleaner, but not nearly enough to make me happy. So I continued stealth missions...oh and all of this without my foot up so I could enjoy it. The advil had kicked in a bit so it was okay while I wasn't standing, but I should have had my foot elevated. I lacked the moxy to properly update the website. I just pulled the files off the laptop for resizing.

Six pm rolled around and I went to pick up Alison from work. She was very excited that I cleaned even though I didn't mean to tell her till we got home. I think she was dissappointed though, it wasn't up to my usual cleaning standards. When I clean something....you KNOW it's been cleaned. This place made me feel like I was only shuffling the mess around, even though I don't think I did. So after spent all that time working to make the place livable so Ed and Raph would be comfy...they didn't even come v.v;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; AAARRRGGGGGGG!!!!!

Alison and I ordered Chinese anyway and played some YugiOh...she like everyone else...totally kicked my ass in that...and it made her all sad N stuff cuz I think she was hoping I'd win....she just needs to realize her decks...are badass and I only take her scrap cards...the ones she doesn't use. Not to say my deck is bad...it's not...it's just not nearly as good as hers.

This is where things get bad. Now years and years of having female bosses and TV has taught me that you can never win when a woman asks "Do you think I look fat?" My first thought is "Oh shit, why the hell is she asking me this?" especially since she's like a size smaller than I am so being the smartass little bastard I am, I say with a cocky smile "nah...you wear such baggy clothes though...better get nekkid...then I'll tell you" Right Right...sounds like a perfect answer. WRONG! She counters with "Whatever, you'll only lie to me anyway...you're sweet, but you won't honest with me about it" This where I get insulted and am like "Well if you won't give the chance why did you bother even asking me" and she's all "Pshh" and walks away. I finish my Kingdom Hearts game and she's already asleep on the bed. After sighing heavily a hold her for a bit and tell her that I honestly think she's beautiful...she's still asleep. *Bigger sigh* I lay around for a bit, but I'm to annoyed to go to sleep yet so I play more Kindgom Hearts, look up some....'intresting' pictures, but am still too annoyed to do anything but sleep. Rats.

Monday is a better day. Work was okay, but my annoying fake boss once again talked down to me. I don't know where he gets off, especially since just a few monthes ago I was teaching him about Photoshop. I'm over at my cube minding my own business and working on Frankford's website and he's all like "Time for you to earn your keep around here" and then he gives me this crappy paper shuffling assignment...he is always pulling shit like this. Like an half an hour before I have to leave he'll ask me when I'm leaving and I'll be like "In about 20 minutes or so" and he'll be like "Oh well I've got this thing for you to do..it'll only take you 5 minutes" and of course 5 minutes means an hour. I swear it's like he's trying to pin stuff on me to get me fired or something. He's so painfully passive aggressive so I'm left feelign like great...I gotta stay or I get F'd over. Then when I get done, he's all like "Now go deliver these to 21st street" Great...not only am I not dressed properly to go see my real boss he's to lazy to send 'em by 'Pony' and already called my boss saying I'd be over with the papers. Thanks Bob...you're a dick.

I get a parking ticket after taking too much time at lunch. That makes nearly $100 I've wasted by not putting enough $$ in the meters. The worse part is, I had JUST BOUGHT two rolls of quarters just so this wouldn't happen. $20 in quarters! Now I gotta pay yet another $15 to the city. There goes this weekend's fun money.

Ali was really nice to me all day and went out and bought me the CUTEST collar at Strawbriges as well as a lil charm for it that says "M" and is covered in shiney diamond looking stones. It's the first collar she's ever bought for me...I'm soo happy! You have no idea OMG...Its so nice too and all big and stuff *wiggles* heehee I got a new collar. This ones only for special occasions though...I can't wear it to bed like I can my other collar...I wanna keep this one safe...this one's from Ali ^.^ *happy dance*

While eating the Wendy's Salad and Chili, we watched lots of Invader Zim. Then I snuck a peak while she was changing for bed, turns out Ali's developing a really nice set of abs. That's prolly why she was all pissy at me the other day, I hadn't noticed her sweet looking abs from under her clothes...silly miggy not having xray vision @.@;; Because I liked them (and I'm not a total tard) I complemented them and she told me that's why she was so upset Sunday...and I said...that "see...you shoulda gotten nekkid like said" we both laughed and I had no problem sleeping that night. *^.^*

Tuesday's my day to see the doctor about my ankle. As it turns out I only have a grade two sprain. Which basicly means out of the 3 main ligaments that connect my ankle to my leg I only ripped one of them. So that means no cast (yay) no crutches (yay) and only two weeks of bed rest. I think I might be able to cope with that...unfortunatly that gives the people at the arcade more time to get good while I just sit around. Ah well...I still got more style in my DDR they all have combined. heehee.

After the doctors Ali want's to meet my at her grandparent's house so I'm on my way to get on the highway and this crazy driver cuts two people off and then zooms behind me and cuts across two solid lines to get in the far right lane from the far left lane. As this driver passes me I notice soemthing strange...the driver is wearing a habit and is a freaking NUN! Of course the classic words out of my mouth were "God Damn" hehehe...I caught myself and laughed. I made it to the house without incident only to find that Alison wasn't there...strange so I called around and her sister said she was at the Jo-Ann fabric place on Bustleton Ave. Took me a minute to remember it, but I got there okay...but....No Alison...so I waited....and waited....and waited....still no Alison...strange. I went around to all the game shops in the area and drove around the movie-plex...still no Alison. I called her sister back and she said once again...she's there and wondering where I was. *blink blink* WHAT? So for another 30 minutes I walk around and whistle the Nieves call (my family whistle) until my lips are numb. After about 2 hours of no Alison I realize her grandfolks must be worried so I drove back. They were relieved to see me, but like me were worried about Alison. So I called her sister yet again and she appoligzed over and over again about how she had meant JoMART on Grant *twitch twitch* Strangely though I wasn't angry, but instead annoyed and relieved.

Well that and in pain...cuz here I was, not 3 hours from my doctor telling me to stay off my ankle, trampsing around North-east Philly. I also feel a little bad, cuz I was gunna be all romantic. I'd picked up some fresh Krispy Kreme glazed dounuts as a snack cuz I knew she'd be hungry. Except after the first hour of waiting around I was hit with a severe bought of hunger and anger and I decided to have my doughnut....it was like an orgasm for tastebuds...I lasted all of 2 mintutes....and ate the second one too. v.v;; Then the bag...to get rid of the evidence (j/k) I never told her, but later this week I'll make it up to her and get her Metroid Prime...that's a fair trade right? $50 game for a 70c doughnut...it's a good thing I'm not a businessman.........shit. ^.^;;;

Anyway Ali finaly gets found, I get my pain killer and I spend the night watching "That 70's show" and eating her grandma's wonderful cooking. Then I finish my homework and she goes to sleep. I follow soon after.

Today! Wednesday, I'm way to tired to go to work today so I call my job and sleep in. It was wonderful, but once again I stayed asleep too long. On a positive note I was finaly able to take a shower in the middle of the week instead of only on Fridays (I actually don't sweat much, and I use antiprespirant so I don't smell bad...I mean come on...I'm a artist coder boy...my reps are getting up to go the fridge) It was a wonderful shower...I just had to be very careful of my ankle so I sat down most of the time. Ya know, one of these days I'm gunna get a bunch of Oxyclean and bomb that bathroom...I've gotten too used to how scary it is in there. I think I'll do it one night when they're all sleeping...won't they be shocked...heehe. Bwahahahaha it is EVIL to clean their bathroom grout! Bwahahahahaha. *ahem*

So after I was all cleaned up Ali got a little snack and then we both had breakfast. Cable Guy was on HBO and we laughed a bit. Then I took her off to work and gave her my ATM card so she could get us the Metroid Games. (Talk about trust eh) Then I went off to class. After my lab, I went down to the game room and since Halo was running on the Xbox I went played some Melee. I finaly got to play against the choads that Ali kept running into. Then I systematicly took them apart.

I started out with Link to get my devine vengance against the aZn Samaus wanna be sniper. He tried to say how we were tied as the KO screen came up with my 9 kills and his 2. I laughed at him and made sure he was the first one out for the next 2 games. He was especially sad when he picked up the hammer, came after me, and then found his character flying off the level for a KO. Miggy doesn't like it when you come after him with Hammer...he makes you pay for it...heeheehee. The other two snipers came with their memory cards and unlocked all the characters. Then proceeded to be Falco and Fox on long levels and only shot their blasters...god they were such choads. I let them pick my character...just to proove a point. The fools chose Yoshi....heeeheee yeah...Yoshi...they must not have remember I AM Fing Yoshi! I made them feel like they'd had a facial pregnancy. It was more amusing when they picked a Kirby (I suck as Kirby) and I only lost (came in secnod) because the one guy used a hammer. And I still had the most kills. RAR!

After that I headed off to my car to put more $$ in the meter and as it turned out I ran into Glen Muschio (head of the Digital Media Department) as he was heading for lunch. We talked for a bit and then I told him of how I was trying really hard to get into some DIGM classes and how they were all full I was just getting tossed back and forth. I even mentioned how he suggested to me on switching my Coop cycle and after I went through the annoying long and difficult process I wasn't allowed to get into any of the classes. He's a really cool guy and advised me to re email him to remind him so he could actually put me in Senior level course get this called GAMING!!! OMG!!! It not only focus' on 3d modeling, but programming as well!!! Then, and this is the other cool part, he invites me to a reception for one of the seniors soon to be graduating.

Obviously if the head of the department invites you to do something, you freaking do it and I was there (fasionably late) and actually ran into my old 3d modeling proffessor. Get this! Even after nearly a year and a half he recognized me! Infact he uses my "Lucky!" Animation (final project) to introduce his class!!!! Aparently he's been using it for like 4 or 5 terms now...even in his second class! It blows my mind. I mean, yes, I did like it...and it was kinda badass...but it way too raw. I didn't get to add the sound or scene transitions. That sorta made my night. ^.^

I stayed around for a while, said hello to the right people and got some advice on my current 3d models. I had to catch myself half way through the night though...I started talking about myself way too much at someone elses party. It was partially because I wanted Glen to know that I was serious about doing DIGM and art and that just because I was a coder I was still an artist at heart. I mentioned about Dragon's Den and the massive convention tour...and some of my advanced plans and new market sectors. Luckily I was able to bring it back and I started talking to the artist who's stuff was on display...it actually turns out we had taken HUM103 together with Riggs back in Freshman year crazy. I wonder how people seem to remember me really well, but I have the hardest time remembering others people...well...with any luck my presence at the party was well recieved and I'll be able to get these classes that I want....for now I need to finish my homework....crap...its time to pick up Ali....

It hurts!! Why oh why does it hurt

2002-11-16T05:49:54Z

Well huge suprise for Miggi! I actually think I did good on that Linear Algebra test! It really helped the professor basicly told us everything that was on it Thursday. I mean, yeah I studdied my behind off, but I didn't expect to be so easy...there was no way I was that smart. I think he wanted to bring the class average up...hehehe, I'm not complaining.

So after chatting with some of my friends about the test, I decided to not bother with traffic and chill out at my cube at work. I wasn't getting paid, per se, but I got the chance to look at some art and even got to talk to Brett, Raph, Ben and BryBry! It's the first time in a while I've been able to just not worry about things that I had to do and just talk to my friends. It always shocks me how much I miss them. It's been hard for me to admit how much I care for people.

So anyway after many fun and intresting conversations, traffic supsided and I decided to hit DDR before I picked up Alison and head off to Harry Potter. Well as it turned out DDR decided to hit me. I twisted up my ankle something bad...it really really hurts. It wasn't so bad after it happened, but I decided to grab a crap load of medical supplies to take care of it. Thank goodness for the help staff at Dicks Sporting Goods. They hooked me up and Ali used her discount and picked up all the stuff for me.

I'm not feeling too bad at this point, just a little pain when I move my ankle to the side. I wrapped it and put more ice on it while in the theatre and I enjoyed the second HP movie. It fun....long as hell, but fun. But I was really bad during the movie. The actors kept saying really funny (dirty) things that I /had/ to comment on. I should be more observant...there were kids around. I'm kinda stupid like that...but I think I was quiet enough that only Ali heard my....remarks ^.^;;;

After the movie I found standing to be annoying and walking to be a true labor. I bearly hobbled my ass back to the car. Ali held me up, but I don't know how to lean on people for support...I've never had to do it before....I've always been on my own. I'm glad she was there though...it hurt so much. She bought me some Advil and calcium fortified choco milk...and I feel a lil better now that I'm not moving. I think it's mostly that no one has bought any Milk (I can only drink whole milk) for the house. And I don't eat nearly enough cheese to get the calcium I need for strong healthy bones. That's prolly why my knee hasn't gotten much better either....that and I'm an dumbass that still plays DDR on a muffed up knee.

I guess this is what getting older is all about...no one'll take care of your nutricien but you. So I need to find a way to eat healthier on or off campus. Yes I could do the whole multi vitamin thing, but I really hate pills. So it looks like I'm gunna sit either by the computer or PS2/Gamecube all weekend. Ah well...it's prolly for the best...maybe this will give me the incentive I need to stay off my knee.

Busy Busy Busy

2002-11-15T16:38:06Z

I'll start off by saying this week, which on monday was looking like a total hell week, doesn't seem so bad in retrospect. Sure I put in several 18 hour days, but I wasn't the total crabfest I thought I'd be. I was actually happy, fun, pleasant, and pretty cool this entire week. I managed to get out all my assignments out on time and still make time for a few scary master levels in Guitaroo-man, an Oekaki, and a Video Game tourney. Oh, did I mention I also work two jobs? CRAZY!

I also got a little better at drawing too. My torsos are finaly connecting with my hips and legs and I actually drew a quasi mecha plug suit type thing. It's actually really funny, my notebooks are starting to get filled not only with obscene amounts of notes and practice problems, but random nudes too. The funniest is this page of hips, legs, and uhm...asses ^.^;;; I also got a chance to try a freaky fish eye type of angle (I might do an oekaki of it later)

At work, my quasi(read fake) boss still annoys me and my real boss is getting disgruntled at my lack of adherence to schedule. Even though I DON'T get bennifits, sicktime, vacation or even full time they're starting to try to impose all these "real" employee rules on me. Even when I only get paid for 15hrs a week, but end up working more like 18. Its not rare for me to come in after my classes and finish up a project I didn't have time for during the day. I've been known to be the last one to leave this office at night. Ah well. On the plus side I finished the initial web design for Frankford HS web page. When it goes live (sometime wednesday) I'll post a link. Currently I have to move all the old data into my new format. Though I do have to say that CSS really really helped out alot! I was able to redefine a bunch of HTML tags so all I have to do is copy and paste crap right into the template! And I don't even have to teach other people how to use it...cuz it gets all the H tags too! heehee...I'm really happy with the way it came together.

Speaking of things coming together (and sort of getting back to more fun stuff than work) look at my Oekaki!

Unico is my very favourite anime character EVER!! I started on Anime with this lil guy and in a kinda weird way wanted to be like him. We have similar personalities I think. I still remember in the second movie when he's facing the evil magician puppet Koruku...he was sooo cute, but such a little thug when he wanted to be. I also though it was sorta funny about how incredulous he gets when he wins a final battle. And it's not like a vegita thing where's like "I BEARLY TOUCH YOU! IS THAT ALL YOU GOT?!" he like "What the matter...are...are you okay...I bearly touched you." and the scewered enemy is like "WTF!!!! you ripped an Fing unicorn sized hole in my ass! I'm dead man!.....SHIT!" lol heeeheee ROTFL!!!

*acks as he looses half his post and now tries to re write it*

The reason why I was thinking of Unico lately is that our friends over at Anime Palace had a 6" plush of him. I say had because Ali picked him up for me so now I have him ^.^ yay. Anime Palace is such a great place to get stuff, like other than the Unico I got a lil statuette from an anime called Arcade Gamer Fubuki. That series so funny! I got to watch it with Alison, Tani, and Matt and we were rolling the entire time. I have to see more of it! I wanna see the DDR/ParaPara girl, that indestructible masked wrestler and find out what the heck is the deal with those fasion panties that give the girls mystical mad gamer power.

Nekocon was a blast. Even though I didn't get to do that much it was still fun. Mostly I took orders, colored pictures, and was booth-babe. I only really call myself that last thing cuz I think it's funny. It's Ali that gets all thed people hitting on her. One guy actually ordered a commission then invited her out to diner on him! It was funny cuz she ended up having KFC with me rather than Outback Steakhouse with him. Oh I was so suprised by Nekocon too! Lots of people seem to somehow now me as, how did Ali put it, 'crazy artist boi that wears skirts' and these people were a lil pissed at me this weekend! Mostly cuz this is the first con ever where I only wore a skirt for about a day, instead of all 3 days. But I was like...these short though...they're so tiny! The girls unanimously liked the short short shorts (one even took a qausi dirty picture of me picking up something), but wanted to see me in a skirt. They must have missed me on Saturday cuz I was wearly this really cute Secratarial outfit with a tiny skirt, thigh highs and a sinch waist vest. It must have been a site, cuz that's what I was wearing when I went raving at the dance. heehe....Most of the guys actually said the shorts were 'unflattering', but I think its mostly that short short shorts draw your eyes to them and I prolly was pulling a David Bowie. Not everyone's into that kinda thing ^.^;;;

But the real fun of this past weekend was showing Alison around Norfolk. See I lived in Norfolk for about 5 or so years and Nekocon was alot closer than I had anticipated. I got to take her to the lil diner my family used to eat at, then we went to my Grandma's old place. We got a little lost, cuz they changed the roads, but I knew an alternate route that took us right there. I wanted to show her this one house grandma and I used to walk past all the time, but I had no idea where it was so I didn't bother. Though she would have liked it I think, the entire front and side yards are filled with Cacti! It had always freaked me out when I was little.

After Grandma's place we went to my old apartment on Ogden Ave. I was going to show here the golf course where we used to swipe golf balls, but the hedges that were only 2 feet tall when I was little are now 12 feet high. I guess 10 years will do that to unkempt plants. The real gem of trip layed past my old elementry school in a little known part of the city known as the Hermatige Foundation.

The Hermatige Foundation is this area hidden away in a very nice random quaisi wooded area behind a bunch of rich houses. If you just go into the gravel parking lot, you don't really think too much of it, because you are first greeted with a delapidated look house and an overgrown playground. More adventuring souls are treated to a special treat if the follow the (now paved) path to the second house. Before you get to the second house there are 3 really really beautiful spots...especially when the sun is just about to start setting. I can't possibly describe to you the beauty and serenity of those spots, but if you can imagine the ground carpeted with the richest, most lively shade of green you've ever seen swaying softly in the beeze you've got a good start. Then add a few old but not sickly looking trees with low canopy so you just get a little tease of the water behind them and the yellow sunlight glittering off that water mixing with the "fingers of god" spotting down throught the tree....*sigh* it was amazing.

We continued on to into a place where I consider heaven on earth. When I make it to heaven...I think...I want it to be like this place. It's not really really quiet because of the waves lapping against the rocks, but it's not noisy either. It's all green and there are occassional benches, but the rocks all seem to make perfect seats. In the evening the sun reflects off the water and you can just bearly see ciziliation off in the distance. From here it seems so far away. I moved around alot when I was little, and thus have the privelege of saying I'm from lots of places...but if any place...I'd like to be from here. It wouldn't be too far from the truth, my father used to take me and we'd talk or just hang out and walk around or play or anything....we were together....and I still remember that when I was little and when my dad and I had "THE TALK" I said that I would one day bring my girlfriend to this place. But not just anyone...someone special...someone that could understand....intangeble....no...some I love and loves me. It was better than I had imagined, all the peices of the puzzle of life fit together and a state of aboslute bliss washed over me. For the first time in a while I felt...clean. The world no longer mattered and faded from my view. There was only that moment...that love...that peace.

But our fight isn't over yet. There's still lots to do before heaven. Respits like that are quite necessary, but one musn't over indulge. After a little more walking around some other nice areas mosquitos chased us away. It was for the best, I still have one more place to show Alison, and 6hours of driving to get back to Philly, not to mention a midterm on monday.

We stopped by my oldest bestest friend ever's house. Aaron's off in college as I well knew, but his mom was still living there. It was really funny cuz I was still looking like a total fruit with my nails all painted mermaid blue, a black leather tie belt hanging off my hips, and a baby doll T with the words Fallen Angel on it. She didn't recognize me...it had been like 5 years afterall. It was really nice to see her and all her scary kids (she's got like 6! all about a year apart) I got to call Aaron on the phone and we talked and caught up, but it was getting late so we really needed to get going. Aaron's mom gave us great directions and the trip back home was easy and caffine filled.

Speeding back up to the present, I have to go now and get gored in a Linear Algebra Midterm. Nah I don't think I'll do too bad, I've been working on it....I just don't think I'll do particualy good either. v.v;;;; Either way, I got 9 o'clock Harry Potter tickets so I'm gunna have a fun night and this weekend will be filled with Drgnden updates, drawing, and 3dmodeling....maybe I'll finaly put out Misha it's only been what...3 weeks now since I started her? This weekends a good time to finish her up.

Falling down hurts more when you're higher up

2002-10-29T02:01:28Z

This weekend was easily one of the best weekends I've had in a while (not counting conventions -- those have their own stresses and pluses). As many of you know I just came off a killer week 1 of midterms. My coding assignment left me so drained that Thursday evening I collapsed on the bed at 6pm and didn't really wake up (save for some warm pizza, thanks Al) until 8am the next day. That 14 hours of sleep was possibly the longest I've ever slept...EVER. I woke up and while it was raining I felt invigorated. I had a mental and physical strength I had not felt in a long time.

After some coffee, something breakfasty and an episode of Zim I prepared the death march that was to be my Linear Algebra midterm. It also turned out that there was homework that I had nearly missed. While studying those 4 hours was difficult, I learned and understood so much....for the first time ever, I thought I was ready. I though I could finaly do it. This is my third time taking Linear Algebra and I was finaly seeing through all the smoke and mirrors. It was like Neo when he finaly understood the matrix.

The test was horrible. It looked nothing like the homework or anything he did in class. The shear (no pun intended) amount of words on that MATH TEST was stagering. My brain fumbled with proofs and the things I thought I knew and while I wasn't drawing blanks, I also wasn't drawing the correct answers. I liken my exerience to a blind diabetic filling the hypodermic with DraNo instead of Insulin. I envy that diabetic...his end was less painful.

The GameDev team I recently joined finaly got a chance to meet Alison and she showed them her designs for their main character. I wasn't suprised that they were hella impressed. Showing people her stuff is like a formality, I just have to be careful not to get too used to it...I don't wanna end up being an ass about how good she is.

I sometimes have to remind myself that she's the star. I do 90% of her talking and "Thank You"s so it's really easy to forget that I'm just her agent. I'm just glad that because our customers realize how rare she is, so they email me instead of her. I guess that's the price for bathing in someone elses sunlight. I wish I knew something....anything about motivation. Our customers are way more patient than I would be...maybe I'm just an ass like that but I'm very unforgiving at times...especially when I'm paying for something. *sigh* This is the job I chose when I decided to do this whole business thing.

Once again I focus on the negative things instead of the positive. I don't know how to fix me. I'm broken...not the Miguel I used to be. Is this growing up? Is it happening so slowly that I don't notice? I hate that thought. I refuse to believe that I'm supposed to be a slug in this saltlick world. Instead of harping on the customers who should be getting what they paid for I should be talking about our wonderful fan Danielle.

You won't believe this, but we actually have a hardcore fan! Her name is Danielle and she actually went to AnimeNext just to SEE US! She missed our workshop at Shoujocon and made sure she was first on the list this time. It turns out that she like PrismaColoring too and even makes lil dolls. She made us a Scratch, Sephiroth and a secret doll too! I can't wait till they come...I'll post pictures up on the website when they do. She actually QUIT HER JOB and got a job at Michaels (an art store) because of us. How flattering and scarry is that!?! She's brave...real brave...then again I remember a silly little coder boy that forked over a week and a half's pay each month to try to learn how to color.

Anyway back to Friday...after the test...Alison and I went out to eat with Ed. Ruby Tuesday's was good and I'm still swooning over their strawberry lemonade. After that we walked around Neshaminy mall for a bit. I picked up Guitaroo Man (PS2) and convinced Al not to buy Yugioh the video game (she just got paid so her $$ was burning a hole in her pocket ^.^ ) and just get the box like she origonally wanted. He checked out HotTopic and I was so suprised to see one of those $40 Ebay cheerleader outfits! I'm sooo glad I didn't get it! lol nothing against the girl wearing it, but the uniform itslef was really bad. If you're gunna get a Cheerleader outfit, you should at least do it right, get it made out of whatever the real things are made out of, not just some cotton/rayon synth. It prolly sounds a bit snobby, but it seems like such a cop out. Mine's gunna be real, even if it does cost a lil more.

After random shopping Ali wanted to look at rings and other misc jewelry. Now all you guys out there are prolly like, Uh oh..watch out Cody. But no it's not like that...I like to think of myself as a faily cool guy and I can look at rings and stuff without getting all weird. Hell I know she likes jewelry...and she knows I can't afford jewelry, so I figure we're just looking. So I ask her what she likes and she goes off on the whole "Oh I know you don't have any money and I'd never ask you for something like this..ect" and I'm like "Baby...Chill...I just wanna know what you like, what you think looks cool..I know nothing about this stuff except color it gold...color it silver" and then she's like "Well I was just getting ideas for jewelry for pictures" and I'm like "Thats why I wanna see what you liked so I know how to color it!" and she gets all fussy and pulls me away saying how I'm so full of it. I mean...duh..yeah...I know I'm full of it, but she could at least let me know what she's intrested in. I dunno...maybe I'm missing something...I'm kinda dense like that.

We stop in two girly shops (Deb and something Rousse) and then try go to the movies. Niether of us checked the times before hand, we're kinda spontaneous and adventurous like that and since The Ring was all sold out, we saw Ghost Ship....Now I'll say it flat out. I do no like horror/suspense/thriller movies. Ali, loves em. What's a guy to do? Ya suck it up and just be glad that it's a dark theatre and no one notices you shivering like a wet puppy clutching for dear life to your girl's arm. She seemed to enjoy it and ghost ship was a total date movie. It really wasn't that bad, only a couple of scary/gross parts, but it was in generally just the right amount of spooky. I still had fun.

I don't remember the car ride home so well, but when we got back home Ali watched me play and beat Guitaroo Man and agreed that it was a really sweet game. I keep thinking there is a sequal, but it really hasn't been out that long.

Alison went to bed, but I couldn't quite sleep so after a while I got up and looked at some Japanese CG sites. At about 3 am it turns out that Bobby's van died so she got home really really late. I realize what time it is and go to bed.

Saturday morning I wake up and I'm not quite sure all that happened except for noticing how many stupid people there are on the road. I went out with Alison's Dad to pick up the busted van and we got it all the way to Franklin Mills when it died again. We sat in the middle of traffic for nearly an hour waiting for the tow truck to come. I read my Psychology book. The irony was staggering. Ed tells me to go on home, he doesn't want to kill my entire morning so I leave.

At home I get breakfast (mmm fried eggs and cheese and bagel and banana slices...yum), took shower and got ready to play some DDR at the mall. I was all cute'd out in something nice and fall like (black super loose sock and all) and had an okay time. I'm a bit rusty and I nearly kicked one of my friends. Lucikly I saw her as I was going up for the jump and so instead of doing a jump split I did a front pike instead. (Gut thaimn my abs are sore now). Then I went out and spent a crap load on stuff for the party.

I got back a little late, and Brett had already shown up to the party. It was cool though cuz he and Ali were shooting the breeze and I stroll in with food and candy and various yumminess. I show Brett Guitaroo Man for a while and then Ted and Lydia show up. We're all hanging around having a good time, we order some pizza and play some random video games. After a while Ed and Raph show up and it's like old times again. I can't remember when the last time we all go together was. *chuckles* Next time I gotta get Blurpy in on this...well, when we get a bigger place that is. The bedroom and the den we have now aren't nearly big enough for the stuff I wanna do. *sniff sniff* and I miss my huge 30+" TV *cries*

*sigh* it was so wonderful, so many of our friends around eating, drinking, and having a good time. It's too bad Brett had to leave early...I think he would have liked playing Yugioh cards. I wonder if that game is multiplayer...hmmm...

I stayed up with Ali...I ate some more and acted a bit too cute for my own good and then went to sleep.

There really isn't much to tell about Sunday....except that it was the least stressfull day ever! Ali went to work and before I knew it the house was deserted...except for me! I turned my music up loud and 3dmodeled ALL DAY LONG! It was so wondeful. I have this really nice looking model now too. Admitadly, she's beyond nakkid in the fact that she has no skin, but I figured out how to skin her without using other programs than 3dSmax! *does happy dance* I'll post some screenshots when I've finished her hands and hair.

Then after Ali got home from work we sat together and drew each other nice pictures. She drew me a few versions of the girl I was 3dmodeling ("Misha") and I'm gunna make the clothes she drew. I drew a picture of Misha as an Ice Princess and a pic of me in some cute winter clothes (at her request). When I get around to scanning them, I'll post em.

Today started out really well. I woke up a bit late and then decided to stay in bed. Ali insisted that today was opposite day and that I was Ali and she was Miguel. It was fun so I played along and eventually got her to wake up enough to have coffee with me. We played Yugioh cards for an hour or two and then I took her to work.

I was a bit distracted by Dragon's Den stuff while I was driving so I sortof started off my ride to school in a bit of gloom. My mood didn't improve when I found out that there was a pop quiz in Math Foundations of CompSci v.v;;; or when the MCS lab's printer wasn't working right so I couldn't print out the notes for the System Architecture Midterm on wednesday...Cross that...turns out that PLC's midterm is wednesday, the SysArch midterm was in 2 hours and had not studied, and I left my book at home thinking I wouldn't need it. v.v;;;;; great job miguel. really great job. I also got my Linear Algebra midterm back to day. I did about as bad as I though I would, but managed to pick up a few points....now I just gotta hope that the curve helps me enough so I don't permantly destroy my GPA. Jeezus it's days like this when I wonder if I'd be better off in an easy major like Buisness, or IT, or something more insulting to how smart people think I am.

My day isn't over yet, oh no. Now I had to write a report on why I am useful to my company. I went into work kinda sour, but I feel better now. Having to write about how badass I am really makes me feel better. Like I'm not the failure I feel like I am. These little entries help too...remember all the good that goes on in my life. I gotta never get caught up in the pettiness of my salt lick life. Like they say on those stupid exercise commercials..."Feel the burn....love the burn"

Side note: God damn I'm sexay today ^.^ Just ignore the guy with the ego...it'll be okay

Why is his head so big? Why, oh Why is his head Soooo big?

2002-10-24T14:18:07Z

Hey look who's still trying to make updates! Me! Lol I can't seem to find two seconds to update this without thinking of something I need to do that's just that much more important. This week is midterm's week and to a lesser extent so is next week. All my really scary midterms and projects are due this week. Program Language Concepts (PLC) had me write a Lexical Analizer. Systems Architecture had me write one difficult program and one obsenely hard program. Another Nowak midterm, which means I knew all that was on it, but as usual he asks way too many questions and I wasn't fast enough with my proofs so I ended up loosing like 6 points because I had 5 minutes to answer the last 3 questions for a sad score of 21/28. It makes me mad cuz I know all that stuff I just didn't have enough time. But then...that seems like the story lately.

SysArc1's programs iAdd and iMult were way too hard for someone just starting in an assembly style language. Pointer arithmatic and Recursion are two of the hardest concepts in all of programming and iMult required both and so much more. I only was able to 60% finished with it, though I did like the way iAdd came out. It won't be too bad though, because the class is curved. On and there was this poor stupid bastard that came in the TA lounge seeking help yesterday on how to do iAdd and the program was due that day 4am! Here it was 4pm yesterday and he had less than 12 hours to write BOTH programs! I feel so bad for that guy, he's screwed.

As crazy a coder as I am (or rather used to be) I'm out of practice. I've been working in IT and webdesign for nearly a year and half now, so I havn't touched c++ or any other Real programming language in like 2 years. It's been quite a smack in the face these past few weeks. Don't get me wrong, I still love coding, I'm just out of practice and being confronted with tons of new language environments. I spent 70% of the past 3 days sitting infront of C++ or some text editor. This morning I woke up from a quasi nightmare about pointer arithmatic, where the awake pointer pointed to 0, but I was awake which means I was indexing an old value and I needed to find the write address, but this prolly makes sense to all of no one so I'll just stop.

The other 25% of my time was spent sleeping, going to class, or work. Work has actually been really good! I just won a contract to design Frankford HighSchool's webpage. They're even going to pay me more than what I would ask for! *drool* I mean I know it's not permanent, but this will really help! Cuz it's easily a 6 month project, with any luck I might even be able to keep my Drexel bill nice and low. Also gives me the necessary fundage to keep Dragon's Den in the Black. I'm gunna be smart about my money this time. It's rare that an oppurtunity like this would come around twice so soon, so I gotta do it right this time.

I swear, it's times like this that make me long for the days when I was just working. I had such a fairly carefree life then. All I had to was pay the bills and I could do whatever I wanted. Don't get me wrong, this is no reason to quit school. Working from contract to contract isn't easy and a good education will separate me from just another random person (like me). It's just hard doing so many things at once. The job, the school, the company, the art. I really need to schedule my time a little better. Set certain days to do certain things. My 3d modeling skills are prolly in the crapper...gotta fix that...my violin skills need alot of work and I really miss my Sax. If I didn't walk like 30 blocks a day I'd carry it with me, but for now I'm not into that kinda pain.

This is where things get slighly above pg-13, cuz it's so weird ever since we got back from AnimeNext I've been on this really strange naughty binge. Most of the doodles in my notebooks (v.v;;; during class) are of people in various stages of undress, intresting/exotic poses, and GPS. Yes I am trying to get my girls to look better so I've been working alot on the more...ahem...femanine aspects of anatomy. You'd never guess it, but boobs are hard to attach to torsos...so many different curves and types. And how they can look really different from strange angles. I guess I need to study more *nosebleed*...drawing guys isn't so bad. I can just look in a mirror tho v.v;;; if I wanted to draw a muscley guy I don't quite have the reference material I would like, but when it comes to Hentai! Bwahahahahahahaha...I'm sorry, I just can't resist sometimes.

Anyone that goes to my Oekaki Board has prolly seen this pic. I think this is /the/ naughtiest oekaki I've ever drawn. *^.^* I like it though, I'm really happy with the way it came out...just about exactly what was in my head. I'm gunna stick to this inking style too. I was playing around with some other ones, but I find that my pics comeout so much better when I use this one. What I should draw is a school portrait of Ryua, this girl and PiXl, I'll save that oekaki for this Saturday morning. Until then I have a one or two pencil drawings in my head are kinda sex comedy ish. Anyone that's intrested in seeing them, catch me on Aim or email me and I'll show ya.

Oh speaking of Saturday I can't wait! A bunch of us are getting together and we're just gunna hang out and play video games and eat and play video games! Alison finaly broke out her Yugioh deck that Raph got her and went out and got cards to fix it up with. So she might be a force to be reckoned with with weekend. Raph is sure to bring his cards so it'll be lots of fun. Not to mention that I'm gunna (for real this time) go to the arcade and play DDR for an hour or two. Who knows I might even pick up another GameCube controller while I'm out so we can play 4 player smash bros. Plus there's gunna be DOA3 *swoons*

I know this is a really short journal entry, but I'm really really tired...I got 2.5 hours of sleep last night so all I really want is to take a nap, but I've got to go to class in about an hour. >.> *bleh* my brains not working so good, so I'll try to my best to remember what I can about AnimeNext

It all starts one Rainy friday morning. Yahoo directions as usefull as ever got us going north on I-95 then south on 295, and after about an hour of driving we ended up back in Philadelphia. Beautiful.....We try this again, it turns out that you have to be really careful so that you stay on 95, mostly involving getting on 295, then off 295 then spinning around is a kiddie pool full of mayonaise while singing The Doom Song. What's really only a two hour drive feels like 6, but it wasn't really that bad. Alison was reading my a story so I enjoyed the ride, even if I seemed slighty annoyed at my direction mistake.

As it turned out it didn't do us any harm, we arrived and checked into the hotel about noon and we were one of maybe the first 35 people there. I expected there to be more people, but as I soon found out, this was a first year convention! Now I was sure that I'd heard of AnimeNext before, but it turns out that there is an AnimeNext in Texas, Iowa, and somewhere on the west coast! Don't I feel silly. Or more acurately I felt really stupid for not doing better research across the board, for getting lost and for being cold and wet. My mood didn't improve when I saw that the ArtShow was sitting literally in front of the Artist's Alley, blocking all the tables. I was pleased that there was only one other artist there though...heehee less competition. Nah I really don't care too much about that kinda thing. It's just that kinda business....if some one's better or has better prices, it makes it hard.

Gabriel, the other artist, turned out actually to be a really cool guy. We all got along really really well. It's fun to be friends with the other artists, I'm not such a shark that I see them as purely competition for my night's dinner. Hell of all the artists in the artist's alley circuit I think I commission the most art out of any of them. I think Art is one of the coolest things ever, I've always been amazed at people that can take pictures from their heads and put it down on paper. If they can take a picture out of your haed and put it on paper then they are even better. I've always found Artists to be sexy, well the nice ones anyway. Some other artists showed up too, this guy and a girl from a local art school seemed nice enough. They didn't talk to us too much, but we have never been chatty kathys either. Oh and the Hazeman showed up for a littlebit to do one or two commissions then run away. He as usual was quite humerous.

Okay so anyway, after we get all set up, I realize...OMG! We have six hours before our Prismacolor workshop starts! And no one knows anything about it! *Warg* The poster I made looks like crap so I'm not gunna bother with it, that's what I have about 100 flyers for! So advertising Miggy when out and tried to find aspiring artists and people that like to color. I got to see a bunch of different things and scope the area while I advertise. Anime Next had a manga room and tons of really sweet programming...Oh and I ran into my friend B! He's looking as great as ever, even let me try on his really velvety goth cloak thing...I definatly need to get one of those. I was just thinking...go the play DDR in the thing, have it covering everything. Do all the first song's moves really creapily then play the second song and whip off the cape to reveal a cute outfit underneath. heehee funfun..ANYWAY...sadness because the game room's not open! Happiness cuz there are so many nice people intrested in the workshop.

The workshop was from 6-8p unfortunatly it didn't make any of the program books v.v;; or the website v.v;;;; Just on the schedule....and it turned out they they moved the Music Video contest from Saturday to Friday during our timeslot! NOOOOOooooooo!!! The only other time we could have done it was on Saturday, but that timeslot was during the Cosplay v.v;;;;;;;; ah well...only the truely dedicated to learning how to color came. It was cool, and I was definatly suprised...there were really few questions, but we managed to fill up all two hours full of material. It might have been the smaller crowd, or the harder to ink and color image, but I think it went well and not too many people took home more than one marker.

After the workshop Alison and I wanted to Celibrate so we went off to find ChiChi's Mexican Restaraunt. That's when we realized we hate Secacus. It didn't help that the hotel gave us these really bogus directions. We actually ended up at a nice little diner. That's like Mexican...right? No biggy, by this time we're both starving.

The food was okay, my meatballs were kidna mooshy and they didn't give me enough sauce for the spaggett, but Ali liked her ham (hated her stuffing) and we head back to the hotel to draw more, but the game room is open now so we spend quite a while playing various fighting games and DDR. After gaming had exhausted itself we went upstairs and checked the lack of good cable for anything watchable. There was actually a men's floor gymnastic competition on and it was really fun to watch. I coloured a pic and sorted through free stuff and eventually we went to sleep. To start a new day on Saturday...

Saturday

----I'll post more later---- I have to go to class now

It seems like I left out the weekend...

2002-10-08T22:26:16Z

I'll try to remember it all.

Saturday
I'm not too sure how I woke up....wait wait...I think it's coming back, the alarm went off. I crawled out of the bed and reset it for another 15 minutes (for those who don't know, my computer doubles as my $2,000 alarm clock. It's sort of a bitter irony that it gets used more as a clock than the things it was built for). I climb back into bed and Al asks me something and I answer and flop down on the pillow. Unfortunatly I'm on her arm so while she's pulling it out and I'm lifting myself back up, she elbows me right in the chin. twas a good shot, but luckily my training has taught me how to minimize even damage from unexpected sources. (I learned my lesson from the time my brother uppercutted me and chipped one of my teeth)

..advance time 15 minutes...

Alarm goes off Al and I get dressed, and then I take her off to work. We don't have time...or rather she doesn't have time for breakfast and she's got no cash so I give her my five spot and then head into Walmart. I picked up some socks that Ali likes and I was willing to try and while looking for the nail polish remover I like, found a really nice mermaid scale blue nail paint. It was shiney and I couldn't resist...haha after that I got some money from the cash back system and bought Ali some breakfast. (Coffee and hashbrowns) Her boss stole one of the top hashbrowns...and by one I mean she used the nacho rule and got like a 3 for 1.

The ride home was uneventful and I got back around 9ish. Got to my morning routine (hotmail, drgn email, mod oekaki board, hug yume the kitten, brush teeth [not with the kitten]) I stumble down the stairs and find that it's about 9:45ish. One or two yawns later I'm colouring some pictures that Ali finished up. I look for some music on TV and catch the end of some MTV2 rock/techno. I torture myself a bit on the colours, but eventually came out with some really nice skintones and fabric. The rock ends leaving only Rap...blah. Time for a break, I grab some Pops...I gotta have my Corn Pops. It's like my very favourite cereal...EVER! I sit back and turn on some cartoons...I hoped for Xmen, but instead I got Mucha Lucha (the masked wrestling cartoon). It was actually really really funny! I like Flea the best.
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"The Flea is never alone! The Flea is always watching the Flea...even when the Flea thinks he's alone...THE FLEA IS ALWAYS THERE!!! WATCHING!!! AAARRGGGGG!!!!"
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Anyway it goes good with the Pops.....the pops are soon gone and I go back to colouring. There was alot of mental pressure to make the characters mostly in black...I've been thinking way too sterotypical goth lately. Hopefully by the end of the week I'll be out of my quazi goth funk thing...though I must admit I like the clothes I'm coming up with this past week or so. Kirby was on after a crappy episode of Pokemon...but I was dissappointed. Kirby was in maybe 3 minutes of the entire episode. Hell King DDD had more lines and presence than Kirby. Oh and it sounded like they took all of Kirby's voice samples from SSMB:Melee. Though it would have been funny if they just randomly gave Kirby a really deepy hero'y kind of voice. I think Kagami would have exploded...lol and I've still got pics for him...
So after the attrocity that was the Kirby show, I put on my guilty pleasure...Road Rules. I listened to about 3 episdoes of it before I finaly picked the final colours for the pics and finished them. I head upstairs to do an Oekaki or two when I make my first mistake of the day...calling my father. Damn...I love the man, but I ended up troubleshooting his scanner for nearly an hour and a half. I do everything I can, but it's a problem I need to see...*sigh*

It's now about 2:30, I've way missed the AGO meeting...I'm not even changed yet. Yes I was dressed, but I was sort of slumming it, and I wanted to look and feel nicer than what I'd been sitting in all morning. Oh and I'm not sure if I mentioned it yet, but my "Cheer" shorts came the other day. *smiles* My DDR outfit is just about complete! See Ali got me this really REALLY light navy blue pleated skirt. You breath funny and it'll go flying up....so you can imagine what it'd be like DDRing....as fun as it would be I think'd be disturbing to have people put money in my underwear while I played BOOM BOOM Dollar. So that's where the shorts come in. They say "Cheer" on the but...you know...usually cheerleaders wear them. Well I figure they're gunna see my ass anyway..might was well make the best of it. I grab that a Sailor Moon Tshirt and do my nails and I'm ready to go. It's now 3:00...yup...way late for AGO...Straight to the mall it is. Ah sweet 3rd Mix in Franklin Mills.

Turns out that I have built up quite the reputation at the arcade too! My Soul Caliber 2 bot 'Codax' is taking people to school left and right :} and it turns out my I've got a rep for being the best freestyler there. *^.^* heehee I saw a bunch of my friends and definatly lived up to my rep. I've started introducing arial moves into my routines now. I'm working on the timing, but it's coming together nicely and by next weekend I should be ready to show a really kick ass routine. Oh and lots of people Cheered for me....I wonder why...heehee....I can't wait until next time.

But I must admit, my knee is still kinda sore. I can almost fully extend it, but there is still some pain. My mom and many other sensible people would tell me to stay off it for several more weeks, but I can't. Will it kill me if I can't DDR? Quite possibly...my major rage vents are pretty much gone from my life. The happiness I feel from dancing keeps me going when things really get down on me.

Okay it's about 5 now and time to pick up Ali. She's had a long day, but wants to go out some. We decide to hit Nashaminy mall. Usually a good time, but today there were way too many assholes and stupid people. They don't bother me too much, because I know that they're just ingnorant, but that's not enough for Ali. She loves me and wants to protect me...and I don't make it easy. Those....'people' really ruined Ali's mood...and for that I will never forgive them. The cosmetics lady in Starwbridges was really rude too. She kept thinking we were playing some kind of prank when I was trying to see if Ali and I could get made over together. I thought it'd be kinda fun, and Al and could laugh and pretend to be all Glam and stuff. *huffs* but this lady was just so darned rude! I should have complained when the manager came by. Not very much of a sales lady...couldn't even sell to a person that /wanted/ to buy something. Stupid bitch. How dare she ignore me!

...clensing breaths.....1..2...3...4....5....6....7...8.....9... 10...ah..better..

So we leave...and neither of us are really feeling like crashing the SAGA dance....so we decide to make it a BlockBuster night. We got Edward Scissor hands and Monsters Inc. We sit for a while and I get a call from Ed. Turns out he just got a raise and Operavectra got paid! We decided to all go out and have Japanese food to celibrate. I bang my head against the wall for an hour or so on some StarFox puzzles...

Starfox Adventures...advertised as an action game...is in reality...a puzzle game. *sigh* it's kinda fun...not really my thing, but I bought and I really wanna finish it. The cut scenes make it worth it. Fox has some of the funniest facial expressions. I really want harder and longer flight missions, but I'll just have to wait for the flying game version to come out.

Anway...dinner is great. My stomach is a little upset so I just have some Cucumber Sushi Rolls (no fish just rice and veggies) and some white rice. We all talk and have a good time, when we return we all watch Monsters Inc. By this time Ali and my anger has long faded and it was great because I think even Raph liked the movie...despite his hate of everything Disney. Ed and Raph leave and Ali and I watch the 'making of' segments...very enjoyable...but now it's about 1 am and it's time for sleep....Ali's got work tomorrow.

...sleep...

Sunday
This morning's outfit consists of all white...not even on purpose...I really couldn't see so well when I first woke up so I grabbed the brightest clothes...white Sailor Moon shirt and my white skirt...oh and new socks I bought yesterday. Oh how I love the feel of new socks....mmmm...wonderful. I giggle and feel like the silly elf in one of the Harry Potter Books who is most pleased to get used socks from Harry and Nevil on Christmas.

After taking Ali to work I sit and eat breakfast with her father while reading "Queen of Vengance" (Ah My Goddess) and he watches football. I go upstairs and to do the long promised Oekaki to BryBrychan for his birthday. I like the way it ended up coming out. The perspectives really really off in the background but I don't care. It came out better than I thought it would.

Today, for some reason I feel really tough. Muy Macho....so I grab my snowboarding pants and my Zim T-shirt and head down to the Mall to play some DDR. I do a song or two and then play my new character 'Spark' on Soul Caliber 2. I'm not going to play my Cassandra bot anymore...she's exactly where I want her...messing people up and lowering their scores. heehee...I'm really on a roll when this jerk comes up to me and says.."You...you're Codax! Your bot always beats my ass I've been dying to play you." Normally I like this sort of thing, but not while I'm in the middle of a conquest. I tell him to just wait a second, but he's already hit player 2 and interupts my streak. As always (with me) it's a good game, but I tear him to pieces the first time. Second time I lost because I'm not a whore. I will not win by ring out...I hate that. So I would beat him to the cliff and then back off...beat him to the cliff...then back off. Almost had him, but he got a lucky shot in and I died...ce la vi...it happens. I sigh and reach down and grab two more tokens and once again tear him to pieces...unfortunatly...I can restart my conquest...DAMMIT! Pat (arcade rat and worker) comes up to me and say that he's here to take back that round I took off him last time (no one beats Pat...ever...except for me ^.^). I still remember last time too....

*flash back*
Miguel: I'm gunna cut you up Pat...you'll see...when I'm done with you you'll cry
Rabble: PSssh...no one beats Pat, playing him is just a waste of money!
Pat : Come on man, you know you'll loose..
Miguel: Oh I don't really plan to win Pat...I've only been playing this game for about two or three weeks so....I'm just gunna mess ya up....alot
Pat : Bring it then.
Miguel: Lets do this.

First round...I pull a string of combos and throws with the 'weakest' character in such variety and execution that I crush him and bearly loose half my life
Second round...a VERY VERY Pissed off Pat kills me perfect...cheesing out my lack of knowledge of easily the strongest character in the game...Nightmare. No biggy...I got my win.
Third round...A still pissed of Pat has a hard time handling my dodging and guarding we beat each other within an inch of our respective lives and he gets in the last hit.

For everygame after that Pat throws one round just so he can say that he was just being nice. heehee...whatever.

*end flashback*

Anyway...Pat starts off as Nightmare (suprise suprise) and I (totally cold with Cassandra) make it quite a close first round. He's pumped...he needs one more round to redeem himself....the hell if I'm gunna give it to him. The second round is mine cementing my ability to piss him off with a character I hardly play. He wins the final round uneventfully and goes off to have a smoke...and gives me the rest of his game. Maybe he's only an ass cuz he hasn't had a really good challenge. It's scary, we're actually becoming decent friends....hmm..

I run into Wolfie and he plays 4 straight songs in DDR...I am impressed and Wolf howl my approval (he digs that kinda stuff). It's cool to meet another fur fan. He's a little scary as far as fur fans go...but not so much that its creepy. He's actually quite intresting too...aparently he just got a job with IBM...not bad. He's like this computer geek furry fan that happens to spend way too much time in the arcade and the gym. (He's kinda built and wears stylish and flattering clothes.

It's about 4 now and time to pick up Ali from work. We head home and watch Edward Scissor hands...I forgot how great that movie is. Oh and GET THIS! Alison's mom cooked the most AMAZING soup! I had like 3 bowls of it before the night was over....sooo good. I try to draw her a picture and fail. I finished it, but it looked really really bad. Way below even my quality. I'm just no good at drawing fanart. We watch fantasia and I eat and watch...then download the new Unreal Tourney.

OMG UT is sooooo good! It loads so fast and the levels and gameplay are Fing beautiful! I have the day off Thursday so between DDR and doing Flash work I'm soo gunna play UT! It's late now and Ali's sleepy...she's had a long day. I start to join her, but I find she's already asleep so I look at some pictures on the Net for about 20 minutes then join her.

*sleep is good*

Monday
You saw the quizes, I take my midterm and as much as I like Prof. Nowak...this test was a paint in the rear! There were 16 questions and each took roughly 4 minutes to do. Except..we had about 40 minutes to do them all in! I /bearly/ got done with them all. I think I did good on all but two. I would have been okay if my mind hadn't gone blank when I first started. I forgot the reason why Union corresponds to a OR Gate and why Intersection corresponds to an AND Gate so I spent the first 6 minutes or so proving what equaled what...and then happy with my answers I started the test. It was down to the wire, but at least I finished...

I read a chapter in my Psychology Book then took 5 down at the game room with Ed, Eric, and everyone. After that I went to LinAlg and it turns out there were people cheating on the online tests! I know that's no suprise, but then they had the "brains" to brag about it to FACULTY!!! WTF! Now 1000 easy points are gone and we have to idea what they're going to be replaced with! DAMMIT! Systems Arch I was kinda boring and I was hungry so after class Eric and I went to get some free food from WYSP (rock radio station). It was a frat thing, but I don't let anything stand in my way in order to get free food.

Unfortunatly the stupid frat boy chefs had no idea how to cook burgers...so they were raw on the inside and burned on the outside. I'm almost barfed. Luckily they have more expreience with the hot dogs so I had a few of those. Then Eric and I went to the game room and played some DOA3. After that break I went and borrowed a Laptop to do my CS360 homework. It took a while, but I finished it. Oh and I ran into an old Jazz floutist I knew. He needed some help on recieving Drexel email so I pulled up a tutorial. Aparantly at Drexel there is also an Asian Christian organization. They had the table next to mine and talked about dating and stuff. Not that I easedrop it's just they were very...lively. Lol more power to 'em.

About 9:20 ish I walk back to my car. On they way a good portion of my insecurites decompress....they begged to be solved after I had solved how I wasn't going to be scared if no one showed up for our workshop on Friday. I wasn't ready for them though and I was left feeling down and drained. I wrestle with my emotions even after picking Alison up. I tried not to let her be bothered with them, but it didn't work. I'm glad though...she made me feel a little bit better about myself and Dragon's Den. I play some UT2k3 and go to sleep...

Tuesday
The cats made it a point to annoy me this morning. Kat decided to sleep on Alison's chest and lick my nose. I'm not really mad at any of them though...don't think I am. It's just I'm not used to cats yet. When I told my dog that he'd better not jump up on something...he stopped. Cats are more akin to disobedient children and don't do it out of spite, but are just to stupid to remember. I will always think of dogs as smarter than cats. One day I will create perfect pet...a Dogcat with all the Loyalty of a Cat and the poop independence of a dog....hey...wait a second.....

Today...fairly uneventful...things are quiet at work...for now. My skills at DOA3 and trash talking are improving and well...I think I look damn sexy today. ^.^ My hair is perfect and not too hott. These jeans have always been my favourite and the last time I wore this sweater I got laid like you don't know. *mad blush* oh and these new socks are still DAMN comfortable.

I forgot to give Ed his money that I owe him, and I worry that there's a powder keg waiting for me at home. After about a week and a half of very little stress, the high tide comes crashing back. Jessica's boyfriend left because she's always angry since she got pregnant and now Jess blames Alison, her Dad, and me for it! (not the kid, the BF leaving). Everyone today that I've talked to about this has been great. What I really need to do is go home and help Alison out. It's not fair that I get to runaway all day and not deal with any of this. It's a messy situation and I've kept my hands clean of it for too long.

It's very hard to be a guy. Sure you don't have to deal with the monthly expelling of reproductive cells...but trying to find one's place in this modern world is very difficult. The world wans me to be tough, yet sensitive. Raise my voice when somethings wrong, but don't hurt anyone's feelings. Support one's SO, but be totally honest with them. Work, Cook, Clean, be a good father, have a career...provide security. Don't be boring, don't be a clown, save money, reserve happiness, take your SO out, be a shoulder to cry on, be technology savvy, but have a great body and perfect pecs and Abs, drink beer, watch football, like sports, take your wife to the ballet...enjoy it. It's hard to be all of what everyone wants. Especially if what they want changes from moment to moment...

One of my greatest strengths is my flexiblity. I can be what ever anyone wants me to be, I really can....but with some people its difficult to gauge what they want, and what they need and how to mix 'personalities' around people that expect totally opposite things from me. Sure I should just be me, but the problem is, I think me...is what everyone wants me to be. So when people tell me just be myself I'm sort of stuck in an infinate loop. I'm sort of everything, but nothing at all. Makes me feel fake...maybe I just don't know me as well as I think I do. And thus I'm left feeling weird...

NEW TOPIC! Thank you sooo much BryBrychan and Darklance! BryBry's Oekaki was major cute and I make a cute cheerleader ^.^ Darklance's site looks really cool and he coloured a really sweet looking copy of RaiSisters! I was majorly impressed and greatful! I'm going to have to start making a Gifts page! I'll implament it when I do the new layout for DrgnDen.com. Don't worry, probably won't be until January. I want to do one tiny update to the style I have now then I'm going to be on to a really sweet and hopeflly (but not likely) final version. Thanks so much you guys! One last thing, be sure to read Darklance and Kagami's web comic! I'm sure it's going to be fun!

Quizes before my first Midterm

2002-10-07T15:29:23Z

First time I took this quiz I got nude...but hehehe, I try to keep this thing fairly clean...but I must admit...those were nice boobies. LOL hahahaha.

What Do You Wear to Bed?

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Like anyone would think anydifferent?

A woman trapped in a girl's body (or a girl trapped in a woman's mind?), you are bursting with inspiration, dreams and abilities! You hold the simple belief that nothing can stand in your way, giving you the courage to move forward and pursue your desires. However, because your view of the world is so simple, you often overlook life's necessary little details. Don't get too swept away by your dreams that you forget to look at what's right in front of you. Which Love Hina Girl Are You?

Oh and I'll never /ever/ think of myself as Shinji...NEVER! I'm not even going to pose that quiz....

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Bwahahahahah strangely accurate!

	My Favorite Female Part Is: The Leg: Toned and sexy. And they never run out of energy, if you know what I mean.
Find out your favorite female body part!

Pushing the PG-13 rating and most common descency...

	What protester am I? I am completely irrational: The CIA has been smuggling in cocaine in the bodies of dead babies they killed while fulfilling thier obligations to the secret trilateral commission! I will scream and yell and dress up in silly outfits until people hear my very accurate truths of the reality of the situation of the reality of things to come!
What protester am I?

...at least I have cute underwear and nice abs v.v;;;;;

Speaking of maddness...here's the last one

Horray for sprite commics

I, the giant floating head, crave.....CHILLI!	YES! MY LORD!	Sweet Jeebus, I'm not Chilli! I'm a caesar salad!

Create your own NES Comic

I'll update for real after class...wish me luck! ^.^ laters

One can only work so much

2002-10-04T21:07:29Z

I am reminded of a song...or at least a few verses of one

Oh what a wonderful feeling...
Oh what a wonderful day,
I've got this wonderful feeling...
everything's going my way.

Today has been really good to me. I forgot how wonderful it is to spend the morning with Alison. She doesn't have work until 2 so I...well...I've been putting in extra hours and Tony said he'd be in early. I'll just go in later...anyway. We had a cute breakfast this morning including carrots, cinnimin buns and coffee. Oh and lots of day time television.

Oh and incase you didn't know...daytime TV still pretty much sucks. hahaha, I must admit, it's helps having someone around to 'enjoy' it with. Jerry Springer was quite silly and thier..."Pastr-yfiles" (lets just say she /loves/ pastries...yeah) and then there was this segment on a guy that liked to wear bikinis. It was silly beyond words, but I was a little insulted by the whole septicle. I know it was fake, but it was still very unsettling. On one level I hope that I wouldn't be grouped into what he represented. And no, I don't wear Bikini's but still...he was supposed to be someone that did what he wanted and didn't care what anyone thought (sound familiar), but the crowd just about lynched him when he confronted them with it. What I wonder and I guess what really bothers me is if I put the people around me through the same stuff, I hope not...cuz I would hate that. I'm all about having a good time, but not so it hurts the people around me. Maybe I'm making too much of a stupid TV show.

After switching lots of channels we found a really good movie on Starz and watched it. Alison sent me off to school....mmm...and I got to class right on time. I even found a parking space real close...only cost me $1. Then I drove off the Utrek to pick up the supplies for next weeks anime convention's workshop. I bought a whole BUNCH of crap! I really hope people show up. Hell as long as at least 20 ppl show I'll be happy. I need to remember to make some flyers for it to post at the convention.

I wanted to go to Fat Jack's since I was in the area, but I had no idea if the meter maids had marked my car or not and I was already pushing 45 minutes in a 30 minute zone. I have better things to spend my money on that aren't parking tickets. I head back to campus, get some LoMein and head to the game room. Of course that's where everyone is now. No one hanges out in the lounge anymore. That's just fine, I got to eat my lunch and play 2 rounds of DOA 3.

Then I went to Linear Algebra...class was kinda chaotic. Planning for a video game development team is proceeding nicely. It feels really great not to be in charge. It's really hard to do all the stuff I do for Dragon's Den and then try to come up with time for a development cycle. Things are coming along quite nicely....yes.. I've got to remember to get Ohayocon space....maybe we'll take December off as far as conventions go.

Wow that was really out there, mostly because my day really hasn't been that long. OH! MY Cheer shorts came in the mail! 2maro I'm going to be all decked out! I'm gunna DDR until Ali gets outta work and then we're going out! Wheee fun fun fun. I can't wait!

Tonite I'll practice and then pick Al up from work. Crap...I play too much, I need to finish this quiz....I've been 'working on it' since last entry. Damn me and distracted ooo shiney nature...oh...and to further drive the point home...

Which ArchAngel are you most like?
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I just spent more on a book than I have on food all month

2002-10-03T23:17:00Z

Lesse, today was as eventful as usual. I woke up with Kittens (remember the 'lil shits') all over me...well woke up is kind of loose here, cuz I hit the snooze button like 3 times. I wouldn't have gotten up either if it weren't for the cats giving me weird kitty programmer dreams. I can't really make it out, cuz it was a mix of them stepping and clawing and nibbling on me with a dream about writing machine code.

I actually got up with enough time to have breakfast...though unfortunatly not enough time to take the nice relaxing shower I've had on my mind since..well...monday. I'm starting to look really scraggily too. My hair is been everywhere the past few days...well everywhere but how I want it. I'm used to that though.

Traffic was traffic and Y100 radio guys were talking once again about this girl they had on the air yesterday that loved giving BJs so much she decided to start making money off it. But get this, she only asks for $20! And there's NO timelimit! OMG I must admit yesterday I about 'sploded in the car. I mean come on, if you're that good you gotta charge something more than $20. Honestly...I wonder does she love it so much that she's willing to risk getting arrested or...worse...some disease for only $20? I'm not going to pretend I know anything about whores, but you think that she'd be a bit higher up...ya know...like $250 or something! I just hope they talk about something else tomorrow, the string of pathetic callers in wanting her number gets old.

Work seems to have decided to get hecktic totally when I didn't need it to be. Since I started class I've had people pulling me in every direction. Wanting this...needing information on that...yes it's great I'm getting all these extra pay hours, but it's not cuz I really want want them. As in, I don't want them over what I'd rather be doing, but it's necessary. It's almost the end of the second week...I'm so tired....I want to go to sleep..but I don't wanna wake up, cuz the day will start again.

That's the problem I have with going to bed. I never really wanna stop doing something fun to go to sleep. But I like sleeping...I like sleeping alot...I just don't like having to wake up sometimes. Sure you could say...'but it's a new day' but then I say "But....its a newwww day" lol Plus I like dreaming better (most of the time) Nightmares don't vist me too frequently and my grasp of my dreamworld is quite strong.

I was a little late for Psy 101 class today because Judy from Allstate and I finaly got in contact with each other so I could give her my statement. (Remember the guy I bumped a while ago) I can't believe I have to go to get my car Photographed on Saturday....this is really getting silly.

I'm still waiting for my Cheer Shorts to come...it's been like 2 weeks so I called the company. Which is really just this guy...prolly out his trailer and he said...oh yeah...he just got the shipment today so he would send them out that afternoon. Man, next time I don't get shorts from a shop that uses paypal. No...I'm being hypocritical...hell, I have a lil paypal shop thing. Mostly for the AnimeNext Workshop sign ups. I hope people are intrested...I'd hate to buy all these markers and make all these copies and have no one show up. I still worry about such things.

Classes today were fairly boring, I've got lots of tests coming up soon, so my once free weekends might be reduced to nothingness. Saturday...after I get my car photo'd maybe I'll just go straight to Franklin Mills and play DDR till I puke...or at least until Alison gets out of work.

Speaking of my lovely S.O., today and yesterday were her days off. This the first time I /ever/ not spent at least 75% of the day with her. Infact, I only get to see Ali for like 3 hours a day now...on a good day.... .... ....it really sucks... ... ... at least we'll get to hang out at AnimeNext... ... ... I miss her.... lots. If I don't stay on campus though, I'll never get any studying done.

Admitadly since, I'm typing here I'm doing the whole studying thing well right now. I'm actually about to take a Linear Algebra Exam....I got 100 on my last one...I hope I don't blow this one. Today I broke down and bought a new LinAlg book. I can't find the one I've been using for the past year so now I've got 2 days to find it...so I can return this $100 piece of crap.

Oh this is kinda a lil funny, I saw a flyer for SAGA. (SAGA is the Straight and Gay Allience) Hillareous no? Seriously though I saw this flyer and it was an add for their first meeting...silly me I don't read the date on it so I'm thinking..FREE FOOD!! I go..and guess what...no free food! This was like their 3rd meeting or something! v.v;;; I was sad...guess what though...no straight people either! LOL OMG some allience..I guess they just have to call it that so it doesn't sound like an elitist thing. My thoughts? Way too many guys...no I wasn't hoping for a lezzy slober fest, but I was hoping to get some good ideas for a comic I was writting. (No H-Sensei not like that) Though I did get to hear about some of the events their palnning, sounds like alot of fun. I did have to laugh at the though of the Drag party they were thinking about having...to think...some people need an event ;P I tease... they're going to have ice cream socials and rollarskating and bowling. Oh and they are even toying around with the idea (thanks to yours truely) about having a 'virgin' get together! lol...virgin drinks that is...hahahah...Just have a bunch of drinking games with these non alcoholic beverages. I don't care how gay or straight you are...in college...you're all college students...so you'd best believe someone's gunna spike the proverbial punch. I think if I ever go to another meeting I'll have to wear a skirt, I felt really out of place....it's funny, the style that gets me made fun of alot would probably make me popular there. Not that I'm particularly looking for that kind of attention...bah...who am I kidding, I love attention. Maybe I'll take Alison to the dance they're having this Saturday. Maybe it's a mean streak, but its always great mess with people's minds. How cool would that be...Alison in her really pretty orange dress, me in something somewhere between slutty and cute. *giggles* The only guy-girl couple on the dance floor...making out in corners...heehee spiking the punch.

Too Too devious...a day of DDR followed by a day of making lesbiens and gay guys jelous. (Ali looks really REALLY hott in that dress...I'm so glad I got it for her)...heehee I'll have to beat the lezzies off with a stick HAHAHAhahahahahah....too funny!

Oh there's this really serious sounding game dev guy on campus that saw our stuff and wants Alison and I to join his design team! This would be great because, with running DrgnDen.com and setting up future projects, I don't have the time to program and make a game for us. He'll eventually put together a design meeting and it'll be so much fun..brainstorming and coming up with ideas. The best part is, I won't be doing all of everything! Some design, some colouring, some CG. I really hope this gets of the ground.

Well, I've stalled enough, I'm getting really hungry and I need to take this exam. Laters

Mig.

I'm a busy busy Puppy

2002-10-02T23:35:52Z

My My My...what a week and a half it's been. This is the first time I've actually had five minutes to myself on the internet. School started back on the 23rd, yes I've finaly returned to Drexel campus. It's been a year since I've been in an achedemic setting and I tell you what, now that I've been in the workforce for a while I can totally see why people become proffessors. As stupid as college students can be, they can also be really really insightful and witty....mostly witty. Something sorely lacking in many work environments. Other than occassional chats with Alison I havn't been in reasonably philosophical or intellectual debates in a long time.

Its just that there's so many hopes and dreams not yet crushed by the corperate machine or massive bills. I can see how I used to be, on the faces of the freshmen. I feel the buzz of anxiety and excitement around me as students pack up for class 5 minutes into the end of a prof's lecture. I feel myself getting old. The gravity of my current situation weighs heavily on me. I cannot afford to miss a word my professor says. My tuition pretty much comes out of my and my parent's pockets. 8k a term...every hour in class is about $50...that's about $700 a week.

It's nice though, to feel like a student again. For brief instances forget that I work all morning and most of the evening. It's hard to believe how carefree I used to be.....damn you Coletrain...your blues is getting me down...making me realize how much I miss my Saxaphone.

My emotions other than happiness bug me. I keep them compressed like a .ZIP file(comp sci geek alert) inside me, while I let my happiness multiply like a rabbit virus. So it's kind of fitting that call these irrational outbursts of emotion 'decompression'. It doesn't happen too often...sometimes it gets me when I don't expect it...John Coletrain a second ago was triggering it. Luckily happiness has triggers too...in this case it's a Jolly Rancher grape lolli that I just found...."it's warm from being in my pocket"....(betcha can't guess that quote came from)

Mmmmmmm yummy...happiness...returning. Crystal Method...helping. Anway, before I got side tracked I was telling you about my new schedule. I work from 7am -12pm at which point I go to class and then study until about 7pm or so. Though I usually don't get done studying or going back to work until about 8 or so, get home about 8:30 or so and one would think that the time between then and 12 would be a substantial break...but it goes by so quick. Before I know, it's time for bed and I have to start all over again.

I'm tough though, hell, it's kind of ironic, cuz I had a similar schedule last fall too. Remember...when I worked at Rite Aid and the Philly School District? Now those hours sucked. That was when I worked from about 8-4, sat in traffic till 5, slept until 7:30, then worked until midnight. That was hell, what I do know is significantly less. Though believe it or not, class has it's own set of stresses.

lol, but you know what? I bitch too much. I have a good life, great friends and an amazing wardrobe. ;P It's easy to overlook all the wonderful things in yourlife, I wonder if it's human nature to be pessimistic? Oh and let me tell you about my classes!!! OMG! It's so great!

Linear Algebra - I finaly have a professor that goes nice and slow! The last guy I had went over 2-3 chapter sections A DAY! It's important to remember that LinAlg is 4 times a week. The guy I have now...we bearly get through one! His only fault is that he's left handed so you can't see what we writes on the projector until he's done and that he makes copying mistakes. As long as I'm observant I think I'll done fine in that class.

Psychology - This class was origonally just going to be add/drop fodder, but it's turning out that I really really like it! Prof Chute is funny and witty and a nice guy. His lectures are really intresting and he always has managed to include the students in some way. I finaly got the book and I can't wait to read the chapters. Though sometimes, I can't tell if he's telling me the truth about certain things or not. I don't know him well enough to know if he's joking about certain things so I often ask him about it aftwards. He prolly things I'm /way/ to serious! LOL imagine that!

Systems Archetecture I - Stuff on Logic Circuits and how to build a computer. The labs are fun and the professor is intresting...the material... and the way it's presented is kinda dry for my tastes, but the book for the class is really really well done. I can't wait to read chapter 3. It looks like I'm finaly going to get to Learn Assembly Language...heehee..scary!

Math Foundations of Comp Sci- Not too enthused about this class. It doesn't appear to be too hard, so far it's just set manipulation and weird calculus type stuff using various gates and whatnot. I know the proffessor from my Data Structures course and he seems to recognize me. Unfortunatly today wasn't a shining day for me in that class...*^.^* I was too insanely horny to pay attention to anything he said. I ended up just daydreaming through the lecture...*meep* I gotta be more careful...

Lastly is my Programming languages course - The prof is insane. I'm sure he's gone off the deepend. Not in a really bad way, but not in a really intresting Professor Popiyak way either. He's sort of odd...but in a charming way. He wears these suits that are about 3 sizes too large for him, but they're nice. In some ways he reminds me of Yota from Video Girl AI. He's really spacy too. OMG and he has this massive hard on for Prolog and LISP, I figure if just answer with one of those two on the final, I'll get an A easy! Hahahahahahah

I'm not really in any student organizations this time around. AGO is still up in the air and I have yet to go to a showing or meeting. Maybe I'll get some time this weekend. *giggles* My only time off heehee...ah what to wear....suggestions?.... lol Though I might show up to another MCS society meeting. Not nearly as intresting as the AGO meetings, but it'll be good to be around some 'hardcore' coders.

I need to work out what I want to do with my 4 hours at night. Well 3 cuz I have to eat dinner. (or so I'm told ^.^). I'm torn cuz I wanna watch Ali play Kingdom Hearts more..hell I just wanna spend some time with her. I already miss the days when we used to see each other all the time. On the other hand though, I also want some time for me. I wanna draw Oekaki's and actually work on the site. I havn't touched my musical instruments in such a long time either. Not to mention the 3d modeling I wanna do. Hell, there are still a couple of commissions for me to color and send out. With all this stuff video games seem so far away. Even though we got sooo many new games this month (Rockman Zero, CastleVania: HOD, Kingdom Hearts, StarFox) I haven't really gotten a chance to play any of them.

Though I must admit this past Sunday was really cool...Brett came over! We played StarFox and Smash Bros all day long. It constantly amazes me how, I can play a game for monthes on end think I'm all bad and stuff and then Brett picks it up for five minutes and nearly hands me my ass. I hope I'm in good enough shape to play at Anime Next in a few weeks.

Saturday was fun too cuz Raph, Ed, Ali, and I went to the Magic Prerelease...I think it's called Outkast or something....I dunno. I'm always really careful around CCGs cuz whenever I buy cards the game goes out of style. Lol, but it was really fun hanging out there...plus we got to see Raph in action. He managed to get his hands on so many YuGiOh cards (don't ask how he got YuGiOh cards at a Magic tourney, it still blows my mind) that he gave me Kaiba starter pack. I had the heart of the cards that night as I won against him playing Yugi's deck 2 - 1. Before the next time I see him I'm gunna tweak my deck a bit...take the sucky cards out maybe even buy a pack.

Well I'm gunna roll out, just one or two more things to do then it's off to Ali's place and I'm gunna grab me something cute...well...nah...It'll prolly be really slutty. N E Way, If I keep talking I'll go over PG13. Oh and to all those I promised Oekaki's too. I swear I'll get to them, I just had a really big commission for a very special client to finish up, I'll scan that and put it up on my site soon.

Laters
Mig

Waiting is the hardest thing to do...

2002-09-19T18:19:46Z

...and now I'm waiting on some phone calls. I'm still kinda sick, but hanging in there. I just took my car into the mechanic and it's both bad and good. I'm going with the good news first, coolant isn't leaking out of my Engine Block. That's a huge relief to me, because I thought my car might have been destroyed. As I've already mentioned I love that car, and when I thought about it last night I was pretty crushed. Turns out the water pump is leaking and needs replaced...as well as the hose leading to the pump. Bad news...Pepboys wants $350 to fix it v.v;;; Ah well good think my folks gave me some cash while I was in Ohio and I was able to do some consulting work too.

...'scuse me...one of those phone calls I was waiting for just came in...
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Okay Ed's going to see if he can get me a lower price on the waterpump/hose combo. Unfortunatly he's got a dinner for his boss to go to 2nite so he can't drive me to pick up my car. Ugh, ah well...I walked the 20 blocks this morning...I can do it again this afternoon. Who knows maybe someone will still be around and I can get a ride with them. I'm not looking forward to resting my knee every 7 blocks....but at least I have Ali's copy of Rockman Zero!

jeebus so many good games come out this month! In the past week we've added 3 new games to our collection! Rockman Zero, Castlevania: Harmony of Disonence, and Kingdom Hearts! And on the 24th, I'm getting the new StarFox game, lol and after that Ali is going to get Metroid Prime. Oh woe is me, I'm going to have to try really hard to be a good student. No video games for Miggy during the week...well...maybe one or two...when I have time.

Would you believe it, after a year I'm finaly going to be dropped back into a acedemic environment. I've been in the workplace for so long....or so it seems. I'm actually not going to quit my current job. I work in the mornings now so I can still complete my 15 hrs a week. Yeesh not that I'm complaining (yet ^.^;;;), but I'm gunna have to start a strict regemine of getting up early.

Oh and on a side note...that nail guy from the other day was right. I spent all day working on my car yesterday and my nails are still shiney!!! There's some oil/grime still under the nail a little bit, but the tops are still smooth and shiney. I continue to be amazed (it's the little things in life).

Speaking of little thing, I was out at the mall again yesterday and one of my fave stores, Eye Candy, was having a renovation sale! Everything was 75% off!! I was able to get this shirt with all these tiny black feathers around the collar for under $5!! Crazy...on the down side it's about the size of my "Cody Shirt" so I'm gunna be showing off my innie ^.^ if I'm not being careful, lol!! They had a bunch of really great styles left and Al tried on some of the stuff that I kept throwing at her. There was actually this really cute halter tennis dress that I'd hoped she'd like, but she said that she felt too much like me in it. Or rather, that it was something that I would prolly wear...a bit too cute. but...heehee...it's happy to put dark sort goth girls in really cute things.

I got to watch her play Kingdom Hearts too, god that game is cool. I was thinking it would be like FFXish RPG, but it's sooo not. From what I saw it plays like FFX meets Mario Sunshine meets Final Fight. I think Al is a lil pissed about the "Auto Sphere grid" as I call it, but I like it. And OMG Donald and Goofy are CUSTOMIZABLE!! I'll prolly end up writing up a review for Neotaku if Jason doesn't beat me to it. Cuz I know Raph doesn't even wanna see it. Too bad, cuz the graphics are freaking beautiful. Hell there's the one pic in the manual I want to make a desktop out of...nothing really advanced...just something nice.

...meep...phone call.....
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Good News Ed's Mechanic can get it done for $100 less!!! *happy swivel chair dance* It'll take a lil longer, but I'm not going anywhere so I can wait till tomorrow to save $100! Haha YES! Yes!! YES!!!! I need a victory soda...I'm off to get some Fruitopia!!

At least I have my health

2002-09-19T01:41:20Z

Just one more week until school starts. A whole new set of responsibilites and stresses. That's a beautiful thing. I don't know why I'm even writting today...I don't feel like writing, I don't feel like drawing, I don't feel like anything. I guess Sy the Photo Guy (One Hour Photo, movie) said it best "People only take snapshots of the happy moments in their lives" I guess taking 'pictures' like this are necessary to get the full idea of what a person is like.

I don't want this journal to become just rants when I'm sad or upset, but it seems like I keep forgetting to write about the nice stuff that happens to me. I don't think it's wrong to have a testament to happiness. There are so few in world, maybe it's because people realize that they can't be happy all their lives. I wonder though why don't people view it in the converse. That they won't be sad all thier lives.....

My appologies, faithful reader, I'm skirting around my feelings...talking about unrelated things so as I don't have to really get into the nitty gritty of my emotions. There are many things on my mind right now. (My appologies to my friends, you'll prolly be mad at me for writting here first before telling you any of this stuff. Believe it or not I didn't some of this stuff would even be an issue).

I bumped a car last Monday (9th) with my car at under 3mph. No damage to either vehicle. I'm embarassed to call it an 'Accident'. I mean...how do you tell someone, without worrying them, that you hit another car. "Oh I got in an Accident this morning" saying it like that makes one sound like a flippant asshole especially when you follow it up by saying "no one got hurt or anything, it was like under 3mph". Anyway 3mph sounds trivial right? No one was hurt, there wasn't even damage to either car. Well it's a big deal for me, I've never got into an accident before. I have a perfect driving (minus some minor parking and speed violations) record...or rather had for like 5 years! This little bump wouldn't even bother me so much if the guy I hit wasn't such a freaking prick!

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Here's the story. Alison and I were driving to work and the sun was way in my eyes. I come to a near stop (rolling) and release the brake to creep up on the car infront of me. I can't see...and I creep up to far...bump. Of course he's up set when I get out and he gets out, I'd be upset too if some dumbass nailed me from behind too. But after inspecting both cars and his passenger and me asking him a million and a half times if they were both okay, he was like...'ah it's nothing, but lets exchange info anyway'. I'm like 'okay' cuz it's the right thing to do. We go our seperate ways...no cops involved. A little shaken, and much more cautious I take Al and myself to work without incident. I contemplate sending him some muffins, but I decided it would be a bit weird. That should have been the end.

... but it's not ...

I pick Ali up and we drive home. I listen to the answering machine and dude wants to talk to me for some reason. So for 5 fretfull hours I try to call this guy back(he gave me the wrong number...dick). All the while I hoped he just was being nice and trying to make sure I was alright...maybe even have a drink or something (which I would of course respectfully turn down and we would never see or hear from each other again). The next day at work I get a frantic call from Alison saying how the guy I hit the previous day called and threatend to call the cops to her little sister(18). I call Jess( her sister ) and get the guy's real number. I call....his line is busy. FOR THE NEXT 3 HOURS!!

...I get through...finaly....

I start by saying "Hi this is Miguel are you okay?"
And he's like "Yeah I'm fine, but I'm more worried about my car"
From here on I paraphrase
'How so? We both left yesterday with the understanding and everyone was fine and there was no damage to either car' (this is where he starts yelling)
'Oh YEAH! OH YEAH! Well my bumber is loose! You Fucking prick'
'What? How?'
'You remember you hit me yesterday, asshole'
'Yeah...uhm...I was there' (me still disbelieving and slightly sarcastic)
'Yeah you left black marks all across my bumper, and scratched it, and it's loose!'
'WHAT?! There weren't any black marks on your bumper when we left and I have no idea how you got those scratches on the top of your bumper especially since mine sits like 3 or 4 inches below yours'
'You damn prick! You want me to come by and show you the damage?!'
'Damage? I bumped you at under 3 mph!' (This is where I start to raise my voice)
'3?! THREE??!?! Try 30 you mother fucking faggot!!! I'm going to come over your house and show you!!'
(trying to regain composure)'So you're a homophobe too'
(a moment of silence then I continue)
'You will NOT come to my adrress. I am not a damage accessor you'd better just talk to my Insurance company'
(he regains some composure)'I thought since you were my son's age I would be nice and cut you a break, so your rates don't go up and now you're handing me all this horseshit'
'You need to talk to my insurance company'
'I can't believe this shit'
'You need to talk to my insurance company'
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Here the conversation dissolves into him being upset beacuse I don't have their number on hand, I have Allstate Insurance (big company) so I told him to get a phone book, they aren't hard to find.

I prepare to file a harassment report with the police. I don't like 'people' that try to take advantage of other people. He's a realworld schoolyard bully. No one pushes me around. I hate that...I'm tired of it happening. Bullies don't go away, they just change forms. They try find different ways of taking your lunch money. I keep finding out the hardway. Sometimes they falsely accuse you, sometimes they get you to trust them, sometimes they make moutains out of something smaller than an anthill. To make a long story short, I got a letter from his attourney...some how after being perfectly fine for two days had suddenly give way and led to whiplash. **SIGH** I shouldn't be worrying about this as much as I am, but I'm such a damn worrywort....just like my dad. Luckily I've already filed a police report about the accident, have a witness, and have been in constant contact with my insurance company.

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Anyway...speaking of my car I finaly drove 77777.7 miles. And to think, it only took about 5 years. Its hard to believe, but I've had that car since I was 15, and it only had 17000.0 when I got it. I didn't even drive it much one year (I was a freshman at Drexel and no cars were allowed). I get so many miles because as many of you know I travel...ALOT. Hell I just put 800 or so miles on it just driving to and from Ohio last week. I guess that last 800 did it in, cuz I have a coolant leak. I'm not sure where it's coming from, but after looking and testing all day (as well as 5 cuts and 2 burns later) I'm scared it might be the engine block. I love my car. It's been with me though half of college and my entire college career. I've gotten and lost jobs in that car, we've seen puppy love and heartbreak. Its always been there for me, my car is my sanctuary. I listen to music as loud as I want, sing along, cry my heart out. I don't care who thinks its weird, but when I drive, I have to 'connect' to a car. (Think sync ratios in Evangelion). My car and I are insanely well sync'd, when I drive I can feel the road on my hands and feet. When my car's gas tank is empty I feel an odd thirst/hunger thing. Sometimes on good days when I'm in good condition I can even feel the cars around me. That car is a part of me, I don't let anyone drive it any more than I would let someone walk for me. That car has facilitated my ability to go to conventions, keep my friends safe late at night, and gotten me to and from work more than I can remember. People don't see it, and they think I'm rough on my car, but I'm the same way with myself. I don't car about the outside apperance so much, I'm more itrested in how the inside works and keep my sync with the car. How fitting that I have a particularly disgusting cold right now. Freaky and gross that the lung butter I've been coughing up lateley is the same color as the antifreeze/coolant leaking out my car....that's actually kinda nasty. Pretend I didn't say that.

moving on....

In addition I have not been able to play DDR for the past week and a half. I hurt my knee after playing all day and most of the night and then running all over the mall. My doc sez I can't play/dance around until Saturday....it's better than permanent damage and it feels pretty much better, but if living with two doctors has taught me anything it's do what they say. You gotta take the prescription they give you and follow it to the letter. Thats why you pay them money...to tell you what to do when you don't know any better...and believe me...you won't. Still though, I really really wanna play DDR. I need my destresser, I suck at SOF and Q3 now and I havn't touched Team Fortress for almost 9 monthes now.

Ali does her best to help me, she doesn't realize that I always feel nice around her...*giggles* Infact she drew me two really really great pics of an outfit I have planned for my big return to DDR. *blushes* I'm so bad, I can't believe I came up with this...heehee...Maybe I'll get her to take some RL pictures. I can't wait!

Anyway, I keep mentioning my Ohio trip to see my parents I might as well say that I had a great time. I once again played the role of "The near perfect older brother". My folks don't know about the whole liking skirts being cute thing. Everytime I go home I put on the fairly hardass son face with just the right touch of sensitivity and humour. It's okay though, I only do it for my mom...my dad really wouldn't care as long as I made it out of college. LOL he even once told me that he'd wear a skirt if it were socially acceptible. Luckily I'm still young enough not to care that much about such things. Plus alot of people really like it, not they'd do it themselves, but they like that I do it. lol. I'm fine with that.

Anyway, back to Ohio. I fixed more computers and swapped more RAM in one day than I had in my entire life. I can't believe I got away with some of the things I did to those systems in my Mom's office. I even maxed out my brother's system with RAM (damned hellbox that it is). My two lil brothers are doing fine, the oldest of the two Rick is finaly becoming cool. God all he needs the right stores and he be such a perfect goth. It'd be great cuz he gets massively good grades in his private Catholic High School. How messed up would that be, valivictorian of a cathlic school a total goth. lol!

Ramon(the other brother) is still a handful, but god I love him. He and I get along so well. We played a silly Pokemon game by his rules...most of which included throwing out the rule book and making it up as he went along. Then we both working on his homework...making a flag with little pieces of paper. It was a two week project that he (much like his older brother) decided to do the night before. It took us 3 hours but it was lots of fun and we talked alot about stuff. He's growing up nicely.

My Dad unfortunatly still smokes, but now only the weekend. I wish he would quit, cig smoke annoys me. I've already told him what I think, but he's like 57 now or something so who am I to tell him stuff. I used to think he didn't care about me, but I was wrong. He and my mom were just being hard on me so that I would notice Pete taking advantage of me. It didn't work, but now that I'm out of that situation they are more than willing to help me. Dad really wants me out of college...hell me too...I've been taking college courses for 3 years now, I should be almost out, not 3 years away (Drexel has a 5 year program and I spent a my last year in High School at Ohio State U. (easterncampus) for a year). We working on my car and talked and smoked and talked (he did all the smoking). I can't wait until we can go out drinking together.

My Mom as usually tried her very best to capitolize on all my time. We got to talk alot and just generally hang out. I keep forgetting how 'right' it feels at my home. When I come back it's almost like I never left. My Mom still fights with Grandma (her mom) and I still cut grandma lots of slack. I'm a little sad because she seems to be on her way out. Dammit though, I'm gunna love her and make her happy the best I can. Yet I feel like a total cad cuz I never really hang out with her. Infact I saw her all of twice the entire weekend. But she loves me in her own distant way. I can see it in her eyes, and when she sometimes smiles at me. I'll prolly miss her when she's gone. Prolly regret not knowing her better. Even though I know I shouldn't say it but I'm going to anyway...Next time I go back...I'll sit and ask her about her life and stuff.

Lesse last there's my dog, Rush. Still loyal and obedient as ever. He's a great example to the poorly trained and rambunctious puppy, "Cloë". He starting to show his age though...slowing down. Its funny because he's starting to become more distinguished a dog now that I'm not around all the time to play catch. Cloë playes with him lots too.

I'm glad Alison came with me to Ohio. She got to see what highschool football games are like and how silly the fans are (in my area anyway). And I got a very R rated show from the Rock-ette type drill team. I dunno if the fact that they were LIKE 14-16 pushes the rating up anymore. But I almost got a RL nosebleed and they laid down on their boxes and put their knees around their ears. Those tiny dresses didn't need any help being scandelous. Oh and the football game was kind of fun to watch too. *sweatdrop*

We also got to have Icecream on a hill over-looking the town and went book and clothing shopping. We watched movies and played videogames and my mom was finaly lax with the sleeping arrangements. ^.^

It was a rainy drive back, but I like the rain.

Also it turned out that I'm allowed to have one of Alison's Stray Project's Kittens. I hope she's not too sore, cuz I'm still not quite sure what she thinks of the 'little shits', but I think she loves them all like a mommy cat and is trying really hard to let go of them. Kinda in the same way I tried not to get attatched to them.

Ooo OOOoo Ooo...mall story! I was out at the mall the other day in my new skirt ( http://ebay0.ipixmedia.com/abc/M28/_EBAY_3e2b204521d856b7b0ca0af0ac8f5f88/i-1.JPG ) and a sales guy grabbed me by my hand and said something about my nails and procceeded to take off the crappy nail polish off my thumb nail. He had a really intresting accent as he decided to show me this really cool nail shiney thing. He even fixed my dry cuticles. Then he gave me a discount on the whole kit he used on my hands. I was so shiney and amazed I had to buy it! He even gave me the hand lotion for free. And he was right, even after a full day of fixing a car my nails /are/ still shiney! Sure I coulda bought a nail buffer at Sally's for like 2 bucks, but I'm a sucker for really nice sales people. That and I couldn't stop blushing, he wasn't my type or anything, I just like attention. Plus it was almost like in anime except he was trying to sell me stuff. lol...*giggles* Thats why I always keep my distance from sales people...with just a soft touch they can make me stupid...

Speaking of stupid I wanna play DDR!!! I wanna play!!! Ah well...I'll just watch Ali play Kingdom Hearts 2nite and try to do an Oekaki. Laters.

Mig

MORE Pictures!!!

2002-09-07T01:51:22Z

OMG I'm finally done. That update seemed to take forever! Despite bunches of stress today, it was really good. After dropping off Ali at work I went to the arcade (TimeOut) to play some Soul Caliber. I didn't intend on playind DDR....really! I didn't even dress right for DDR or so I thought. But after defeating an army and being impressed in my bot I decided...well..the arcade was fairly dead...one game of DDR couldn't hurt.

OMG that had to have been one of the best DDR games I've played in like...ever! I sight read a song and was able to groove pretty nice into it. I'm no stepper so I had no problem improving the space in the one footer 'Come to me' Then in the middle of doing some really FREAKY footwork in BoomBoom Dollar I noticed I had drawn somewhat of a crowd (6 people!!). It was soo great! During the my spins I would smile and wave with one hand..and with the other try to keep my skirt down. No one seemed to mind so I either did a good job...or they were just too embarassed to say anything ^.^ I finished with Butterfly and as I stepped off the pad I got applause! Would you believe it! They actually clapped for my freestyling antics!!!

I was so embarassed and did this weird curtsey bow thing laughed and ran away...and by run I mean skipped....it was so great! I had soo much fun!

I got back and did an Oekaki on my board. I really like the way it came out, but it took sooo long to do...didn't feel like it though. Then I commented on some..feilded a call from my mom on broadband services. Then I formatted some pictures and uploaded them to the site...by some I mean 22. I keep forgetting how long these major updates take. I didn't even get to play Mario Sunshine yet! (much less eat) but I'll prolly get something with Alison...I'm about to pick her up about....now.

Pictures!!

2002-09-05T06:17:00Z

I've finally finished scanning, croping, and thumbnailing our pictures from various cons and activities. Check 'em out! And while I won't write out all the explinations for the pics on that page...just ask here and I'll give any dirt the pic might have.

I had the best day/date today. I'll tell you about it tomorrow *sigh* I'm gunna go dream about it now....G'night!

PECO Energy and a certain roommate ANGRY RANT WARNING

2002-09-03T17:52:16Z

I just got a call from PECO Energy...AT WORK! I don't even know my work number, but somehow they got it! They want $370+ from me by next week....as part of the $780 bill!!! Nothing like 3 monthes back energy bill....the best part....the part that really gets me...is that it's in my name. Most expensive bill and it's in my name...how was I supposed to know I was gunna get screwwed this bad?!

I wonder if he's laughing...if he finds this funny. I should have noticed it sooner, he always seems to laugh when it's someone else's misfortune. I have been played for a fool and now the ramifications are really hitting home. What am I gunna do......what am I gunna do? I'm supposed to be going to class in 3 weeks, focus on getting an education to better myself. My next 3 paychecks...if he doesn't give me any money...may just have to go to PECO. I might be able to keep $50 of it for myself, but that goes directly toward gas to and from school/work. I need another job to pay for it. But there aren't that many hours in the day. I need to focus on school....I need to focus on school....

I thank God for the generocity of Alison's Parents who are letting me stay at their place virtually rent free. I could ask for help from my folks, but they are already paying so much for my mistakes. Car Insurance, Health Insurance(namely my last hospitalization), student loans....It's easy to think you're independant when you can't see the money that's coming out your tail pipe. Hell...I wanna thank everyone right now that have helped and supported me. Sometimes its hard to see all the wonderful and good in the world. Thank you all for making sure I don't get too lost. I hope I've been there for you when you needed. And when I haven't I'm sorry....so very sorry.

I'm outta here for now...I need to go the arcade...DDR and SoulCaliber my pain away

I've never liked moving....

2002-09-03T14:59:48Z

Things have been difficult since Wednesday. But too much has been resolved to bring it up now. It would be akin to restarting a fire that had been burried in sand that was drenched with water and now burried deep below the earth. I could do it...but why bother.

Anyway...we're all moved out of the Joshua House apartments. I'm living at Alison's house currently and then, with any luck, in a really great house down on Cottman and The Blvd. Stress Stress Stress...it piles up, without a release, there's overflow. But at each overflow, you rebuild the dam a little higher. Manage it a little better....

I've found a new outlet for my frustrations and anxiety. I've started becoming a regular at Time Out arcade. Why not? They have DDR (2nd and 3rd Mixx) and a range of players so I don't have to stupid cuz I only do basic. Then again, I'm not a stepper...I'm a freestyler. Basicly I don't care about the level just because it's all about coming up with cool dances and maybe look like you know what you're doing. That and I found out Soul Caliber 2 has a conquest mode in which you not only fight with an army of other players, but raise and AI 'bot' to fight like you. Mine kinda sucks right now, but I'm gunna go in and train her good. I play Casandra...the Sophitia rip off. Check it

http://r3s.servercentral.net/history/cassandra.php

http://www.womengamers.com/dw/sophita.html

Yes Yes...I /know/ they're sisters and thus the similar but different tastes in fasion. I've just been never been big on full hose...especially with the way her skirt physics work. No I don't think I would have been happy should she have been wearing shorts under the skirt either. This isn't supposed to be modern day. *sigh* I guess what I just have is a horrible double standard. That or I'm just not nearly as confident as a fighting game character...cuz I'd be blushing up a storm if my skirt ever flew up like that. Hell I played DDR in shorts under my skirt yesterday and prolly will again later. lol...I'm no good ^.^ lol

This DDR guy invited me to come back on Saturday when everyone will be there so we could all play DDR together!!! I can't wait! I'm becoming more and more a mall rat everyday...I feel so...special!! lol.

I ate Sooooo much food yesterday! Both Eds had BBQs (Alison's Dad and my friend Ed) and everyone knows I /never/ turn down food...so I had a hotdog, cheeseburger, baked beans and this cheese rice thing that Sean cooked. It was all so good. Then I went and picked up Al, and we went to Ed's house and his folks had cooked up a storm! OMG Just waiting for the main course I had 2 bowls of chips and salsa and a burger. Then when if finaly came time to eat I had soo much more! I had an empenada, plantanos, steak, ribs, arroz con pollo (rice w/chicken), bread, and about 3 slices of Watermellon....I was sooo full....
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today I have heartburn.....
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OH BABY!

lol...anyhue, I swear now that I've finished moving I'll put those new pictures up! I scanned them before I left and I just got my computer set up last night. I was gunna burn them and do it here at work, but I forgot to do it this morning, so look for them either later 2nite or 2maro morning. Then they'll be on the site on Thursday. Unless I get insanely lazy...and just play Parappa. Then everything'll be up on Thursday ^.^ I don't think it'll come to that though. Check for me online today...if I'm not playing SOFII I'll leave AIM open so I can work on thumbnailing the pictures so I can post em nice and easy here. Until then... Laters!

Looking forward to the Payday

2002-08-28T14:42:39Z

Still packing, still moving...which really means all I did yesterday was pass out after picking up Ali. 2 hours of blissful unconciousness...despite what I say I like being alseep....its the waking up...or going to bed that's difficult for me. No biggy though, cuz I bought some popsicles. They were all fruit flavored and stuff. Yumminess. Then Ali and I finished watching the Slayer's Movie and then we watched Corkey Romano. Ah the joys of no cable. I had lots of fun though.

I finished up the last of Exploitation Now!. Poe has been working that comic for two years now and he's finaly finished with it. I've been reading it since the beginning and it's so cool to watch someone grow and change over two years. So I composed a little destop (different sizes available on DrgnDen.com). I thought it was kinda funny.

I took a little trip to Mild Heaven and finaly was able to get to sleep around 2:30 or so. I dunno what's messing me up so much...maybe it's the heat. I mentioned before how our AC's broke. My sleep cycle's all messed up. I long for a day off...but it's not to be...at least not until we get everything cleaned and moved out.

*Dream*
Modern Day style setting except in this moderatly size city is a MASSIVE Black glass building. It dwarfs all the other buildings around it. It's at least 8 blocks long and 3 blocks wide and extends up into the sky easily 6 times the tallest building in the area. Inside I am the co owner's daughter and trying to wrest control of the company into my hands. There is a party in which many of the 'smaller' items of wealth were being shown. These 'small' items included Diamonds larger then baseballs and other various gems that were just STUPID BIG! One would have thought them fake if not for the numerous celebreties the spotted the party...and the ominous looking guards at each entrance/exit.
To distract the guests I quickly join an orchestra I had prepared in the other room. We put on a magnificant show including glowsticks, a really intresting sliver liquid/powder thing, and more intresting jewels. Everyone decides to back me and the company prospers. The already STUPID BIG building it built to twice it's size (time lapse video style). To celebrate my success my looser boyfriend takes me to one of the lower level food courts. Think, every single dive eatery crammed into the area of a mall. I get a little upset cuz I wanted to go someplace nice...but he seemed to be wrapped up in the fact this place was different, and not what I'm used to and therefor...romantic and beautiful.....a horse faced midget tries to swallow half my head. I remove myself from his slobery grasp and right before I'm about to rip him to pieces...he blushes and goes back to cooking...I realize that he had a crush on me and didn't know how to express it....so I let it slide. The food is bad and my face is covered in horsemidget spit. Before this date got any nastier (ie the food arriving) I wake up
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Major Kudos to Bryan...he drew a really cool comic with me in it *^.^* Not to mention the other 2 comics he did are freaking hillarious! His mom seems soo cool...well at least funny. Especially if you've seen any of his other stuff. I hope she wouldn't think too badly of me, if I ever met her...lol...but that's not likely.

Oh and here's a quiz that I never got to take:

x. name = Miguel
x. birthday = March 9th
x. piercings = none...I use magnetic earrings sometimes though
x. tattoos = only occassional temporary ones that Ali Draws on me
x. height = 6'
x. shoe size = 9.5 - 10.5
x. hair color = Chocolate Brown with natural blond bits
x. length = v.v;; Shoulder length...think Tidus, but curly
x. siblings = two brothers both younger
x. pets = 5 cats (thanks Al) my dog "Rush" lives with my Family

last...
x. movie you rented = Corky Romano (I'm going to get Kissing Jessica Stein tonite)
x. movie you bought = Peter Pan...return to Neverland
x. song you listened to = Teenage Dirtbag...its on right now...
x. song that was stuck in your head = HA! I will not fall for this trick and get "Our house" stuck in my head...wait....no!.....ARG!!!!!!
x. song you've downloaded = I havn't downloaded an MP3 in soooo long...but Raph got me Starmine...so I guess that's the last one I got
x. cd you listened to = Would be xXx Soundtrack, but I listend to Eric Clapton last night
x. person you've called = My Abuelita, it was her birthday the other day and I couldn't get ahold of her...I guess I'll keep trying
x. person who's called you = Telemarketer...Pete before that.
x. tv show you've watched = *cries* They took...my cable!!! But It would have to be Shark week...for some reason we still have animal planet
x. person you were thinking of = Bryan...I got this quiz off his LJ

do...
x. you have a bf or gf = yeah
x. you have a crush on someone = Always ^.^
x. you wish you could live somewhere else = lol, I'm moving so I guess so....but yeah I used to wanna live on the west coast, but I dunno. Things are aweful spread apart there and it'd be really hard to go to alot of anime conventions....only video game stuff out that way.
x. you think about suicide = Not anymore...seems like a waste. I might get off, but at the expense of so many other all around me. I'm not that much of an ass.
x. you believe in online dating = Not really, you gotta be real careful with that. See I had this friend and lets say...things went horribly horribly wrong. Ever fly to Alaska with money you stole from your little brother? He did....dumbass.
x. others find you attractive = Sometimes...no one seems to notice or care if I wear pants, but pop on something a little cuter and people notice me more.
x. you want more piercings = Not really into it...my mom would die
x. you want more tattoos = My mom...she'd die...I just mentioned a temporary tattoo that Ali drew on me and she almost cried!
x. you drink = I liquor shelf scares people (The everclear evaporates really fast so it looks like I'm slowly drinking it, lol)
x. you do drugs = Drugs are Bad...miggy is drug free...I promised my Dad.
x. you like cleaning = Yeah, but only if I'm not the only one doing it. People should pull their fair share.
x. you like roller coasters = YEAH! They are sooo much fun! I like them all...except for the ball crushing ones with the bicycle seat (fake ass standing coaster)
x. you write in cursive or print = I have fused printing and cursive together for a style that is quick and only somewhat illegible
x. you carry a donor card = No

for or against
x. long distance relationships = They're very difficult...if you can pull it off kudos to you
x. using someone = If it's buisness...but don't play with people's hearts...thats personal stuf
x. suicide = At least have the common descency to consider others and their feelings...selfish bastard
x. killing people = I don't think I'd have a problem with it...I've fired a gun...it's really easy to pull the trigger. But there has to be a reason.
x. teenage smoking = I generally don't like smokers. It smells bad and gives bad breath...I hate bad breath.
x. doing drugs = Don't steal my shit for drugs. Drugs are bad, they let others control your life.
x. premarital sex = Yes. I don't plan to be married for a while (I'm also not too thrilled at going blind ^.^ lol)
x. driving drunk = Against. Stupid Stupid Stupid
x. soap operas = I'll watch them if they're on. I like romance and stories and bad acting...plus my grandma used to watch em...so it's kind of a nostalgia thing

favorite...
x. food = Cuban/Spanish
x. song = Teenager in Love
x. thing to do = Code
x. thing to talk about = anime, drawing, videogames, me
x. sports = rugby, netball
x. drinks = Coco Rico, Cola Champagne
x. clothes = Cute pleated skirts, loose socks
x. movies = Dragon Heart 1 and 2
x. holiday = Christmas, Valentine's Day

have you...
x. ever cried over a girl or boy = Yes
x. ever lied to someone = I horrible at lying so I've decided to just go with the truth
x. ever been in a fist fight = Yes
x. ever been arrested = Never, but I've had my fair share of run ins with the fuzz (can't hastle me pig...I'm doing the speed limit...OINK OINK OINK!)

what...
x. shampoo do you use = Herbal Essences...the fragrance it leaves makes me stupid...when I had longer hair..if I turned my head too quick I'd go all sloshie.
x. perfume do you use = Cotton Candy scented
x. shoes do you wear = Cheap Sneakers...my latest pair cost me $8
x. are you scared of = bridges over water

number...
x. of times I have had my heart broken? Enough to not want to count
x. of hearts I have broken? I'm too dense to notice
x. of boys I have kissed? 3
x. of girls I have kissed? Lots...a whole bunch. I like kissing
x. of continents I have lived in? Two
x. of drugs taken illegally? None
x. of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? Maybe 2 or 3...I don't generally trust anyone
x. of people I consider my enemies? At least 4, but I don't care enough let it bother me...or notice that there are prolly many more
x. of people from high school that I stayed in contact with? None. I hated highschool and no one really liked me much...not enough to wanna keep in touch anyway.
x. of cd's that I own? Not too many...I prefer MP3s cuz CDs generally let me down...I'd say around 20 though
x. of scars on my body? 8...4 bike related, 1 tree related, 1 fall related, 1 knife related, 1 burn related. Most are nicely hidden
x. of things in my past that I regret? I've tried to live my life without regret. It does me no good. The only thing I regret is not living my life without regret until I turned 15.

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I got my pictures back from Otakon and the last few cons I've gone to. I'll either post them here, or on the website. No idea yet. Ah well...I'm off to update.

Mig

So much to do...no time for stress

2002-08-27T16:30:24Z

I'd like to first mention...I'm SSSOOOOOOO TIRED right now. I want to go back to sleep, but I have a whole nother day of moving. Things have been progressing nicely with the moving of stuff out, but it is still a daugnting task. Ali and I own so much.....STUFF!!! lol The funny part is, it's all useful in someway. Really. Yesterday (the reason I'm so tired) was great.

Al was a lil down and it kinda affected me (I can be really empathic) and I had some bad dreams. Not scary stuff...just sad stuff. But right before I woke up, I had run into my best friend from when I lived in Ohio and we snuck into the superbowl together. There we got separated, but I met with Whoopie Goldburg and we had this great chat about how my mom loves her. She let me sit in on a board meeting.

Anyway...our AC's dead so I've been feeling kinda nasty lately (so hot...bleh) I went and took a shower. I think too much. I was going to play some Smash Bros when i got out, but it turned out that Al was up so we sat around and talked a bit. It was nice and we learned a little bit more about each other. I made us both coffee and things returned to being all good. Coffee makes everything better. We drew some pictures together, and then Pete's mom came over. I was still in a towel...but didn't care.

Eventually I got dressed (bearly, Ijust put on some shorts) and started packing more boxes. Pete's mom was shocked at my lack of body hair and I once again made with the explaining. Everytime I tell the story it seems to be more humourous to me. I dunno. Pete and his mom leave...its just me and Ali.

We pack boxes....

and pack.....

and pack......

Until we've got 6 more for the car and take them over to her Grandma's place. We hang out with them for a few hours then scoot over to the pool. I never get to go swimming. It was so perfect too...the sun was nice...the water was cool...swimming was free. My kinda pool. No diving board, but I could cope.

Al and I rent some movies and I decide to cook an amazing dinner. Cheeseburgers ala Mig and Peas with some Flan for dessert. We watched SuperTroopers and Shallow Hal. Ed came over and wactched Super Troopers with us. Shallow Hal was much better than I thought it ever would have been. I was plesantly suprised. As a side note...the female lead Gwynth Paltro or something like that wear some of the hottest lil outfits. OMG...those tiny shorts were to die for. The way the hem....*ahem* and the many many many panty shots *nosebleed*. Plus it had Tony Robbins in it. That man is genious, he's the coolest self help guy I've ever had the privledge of listening to. I got his book on tape once...truely amazing stuff.

After the movie I start looking for some of Al's music CDs so we can listen to stuff and draw. I'm still working on my little comic project and she drew stuff for me ^.^ You'll never guess what I found! Al's Suikoden II Game!! She'd been looking for that for like...ever! (the game's easily worth like $100) She was so happy, while she played it a bit I made some coffee with Whiskey for us. It wasn't really strong, but the mix with caffine and sugar made me a bit....hmmm...Inspired.

After a bit of the inspiration faded we watched some Slayers, but she was falling asleep so I put her to bed and wasn't quite tired (I had just had coffee remember). So I played SOFII until all hours of the morning and then beat up Angelic Remix (Ben) so he would update his web comic. I might beat him up for just throwing a halftone filter over a photo, but it was amusing so I'll let it slide. Plus its not like I never ever put in a photo background. lol.

So anyway...after also talking a bit to Adam and passed out on the bed and slept...unfortuanly I didn't pick a good enough MP3 to wake up to. So I heard the song at 6am Al and I looked at each other for like 2 seconds...then we both passed out. Ooops I dreamt about a reunion party held at the top of a lighthouse and there was lots of food, that I didn't register to get...so I was only allowed a roll. My friend was the same way. It was actually odd cuz my dream mixed some high school peeps I havn't seen in 3 years, with the Suikoden Menu game, Shallow Hal's 'ugly' girls and a few of the local cops from Super Troopers. That's when I realized it was a dream and woke up. It was 7am...Ali and I had to be to work in less than 10 minutes!! We barely made it. And I'm still tired.

OH and another thing I neglected to mention. Alison has kittens now....4 of them as well as the mommy cat that had them. She's a good mother, but can be a real snob sometimes. I don't get how cats think they're better than everyone else. I'm trying really hard to like Al's cat, but its like the cat does things to intentional annoy me. She always wants to be fed, and she isn't nearly as humble as she used to be. I miss the cute kitty that would come up to me and stand on her hind legs just so I could pet her. Is this what happens when they pop out a few kids and starts getting fed? Cat expects me to watch where I put my feet when shes all begging me for a can of food. I'm sorry, I'm the big dog around here smaller mammals best watch out lest they get stepped on. But I'm in an awkward position. I don't wanna kick the thing (by accident) cuz Ali loves her...Ali understands cats. I would intentionaly hurt something Ali loves...plus Cat needs to feed her babies. But I'm not going to fuss over a brat.

I'm prolly just mad cuz she ate my cheeseburger last night and kept jumping in the window (my lease doesn't allow me to keep animals). I realize I'm moving, but the less complications that happen the better. I just want a nice easy move. It's stressfull enough without having to worry about if my Landlord is gunna be a bitch and sue me. I don't have the money for that kinda shit. Okay...that's enough venting there...I gotta remind Al to go with me and buy some cat food for the little beast.

Yet more news, Dragon's Den Unlimited is going to be hosting a workshop at Anime Next! Yup Yup...just working out the details now. They didn't want to put our convention flyer in the registration pack though. That annoyed me. It something we doing for them...and it takes so little effort to put it in. It promotes convention activites way more than it promotes us. That and at conventions ppl don't even know what a commission is, so they go and blow all their $$ in the dealer's room and then have no money for art stuff. I might have to be a little more proactive at this con, to prevent that from happening.

Okay all...I'm off...I need some food...real bad...all I had was a Cinnamin Bun today and some more coffee....mmmm coffee...Check the site later 2nite or 2maro. I'm going to scan a bunch of pictures before I have to put them in a box.

Miggy

codax @ 2002-08-22T18:29:00

2002-08-22T22:13:45Z

Van's the Man

Much has happened over the past few days. Most of it has left me sleepy and hungry but most of all craving each day. I have this thirst, a thirst for the marrow in the bone that life throws us. I've had some hard times and wondered what it's all about, wondered if it was even worth it. Ya know...we're all going to die anyway...what's the big deal if you do something...or nothing? Is raising humanity higher really all that important?

Recently I have discovered that the answer to such depressing questions is so depressing that it can only lead to happiness. It's so crazy it just might work. What does it matter if it doesn't matter? Who gives a F*ck right? I'm alive, I determine what I wanna put in and based on that...what I get out of it. Because in the morning you're the one that's gotta look at your mug.

That's another thing, I'm begining to dislike the phrase 'At then end of the day....' it makes it seem like nights are so hard, bah I say. It's mornings that are rough, having to pull yourself away from blissful unconciousness to face another day. Even as optimistic as I am, its difficult to spring out of bed and say "Damn, today's going to be another day" even if it's gunna be a good day.

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You can't see me twitch and bob right now...between the xXx Sountrak and DirtyVegas my cube here at work has been one hyped up party. Damn I love good music...
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Anyway...back to my point. What is the cause of my revelation? Believe it or not...an old man. Some guy that I saw at the Renaissance Fair this past weekend. His name is Van. This man...must be like 78 or something, old...frail looking....is sitting alone on a bench waiting for the Mud Beggars to start their show. When I saw him when I first arrived his aura was bright...seriously. I'm out of practice in seeing 'em, but he was definatly glowing. I didn't take much notice, I was busy eyeing the turkey leg the person in front of me was munching.....BUT ANYWAY...back to VAN..seriously...OLD DUDE!!! The show is the marriage of a mud wench (ugly) named Ploppy. Her two costars were these really funny improv guys that were also mud beggars. The whole thing culminated into a gameshow to where 2 audience contestants were given 'Stunt Cupons' so that if Ploppy told them to do something that was too outrageous they didn't have to do it.

They told Van that he had to do his best swandive into the Mudpit...swimacross and french kiss Ploppy to prove his love for her. Van is the man, they expected him to give up his Stunt Cupon like the other guy, but he puts on this massive grin and drops the Cupon. He shuffles over and the everyone's suprise Dives into the MUD!!! Doing his best butterfly stroke he surfaced at the other side and planted a BIG MUDDY wet one right on Ploppy's Muddy Lips! It was so outrageous...so increadible. I can't even describe it here and do it justice. Van, wherever you are, you're my hero. You know how to grab life by the balls and laugh in it's face. I wanna be like you dude, I want to have your guts when I'm that old.

If some old lawyer can retain that kind of moxy, and love of life after being that old and seeing and experiencing more than I ever could have in my mere 20 years, by god I'm gunna be the same way. So as long as I draw breath I'm gunna see the bright side, know the glass if half full, and the best days of my life are still to come.

Server Issues

2002-08-18T02:28:41Z

Here is the link the comic posted below.
http://accountsupport.com/~drgnden_/images/skirtcomic.jpg

My admin really messed up up DrgnDen.com v.v;;; nothing that I couldn't fix, but nonetheless annoying. So if you are trying to Oekaki just go to the main page and let it autoforward you.

Miguel